~Music...Remedy For Life~

2009-11-29T07:42:00.001-08:00

Gonna change my blog add. Leaving BS and goin to Tumblr. Link would be J-mylife-mystory.blogspot.com

After a long long long time...

2009-09-25T20:59:00.000-07:00

Haha. I'm back after a long long long long time of absence. Mostly cause i don't really feel like blogging i guess. Lazy. But i just thought that i should continue on my blog. I have quite a few new events as well! =)

First up, 4bia 2. Hmmmm...it was... scary? For some of the stories that is. But mostly shocking. Except that there was a really unexpected twist in the end.But overall, its a very nice movie. But not for those who can't really take horror. I myself had to look down or close my eyes at certain parts cause it was really too...scary? Gory? I dunno. Use your imagination. Zombies, ghosts, gore. That would pretty much summarise the entire movie. Except for the humour at the back.

So i went off to watch 4bia yesterday. Then went off to slack and eat at Sembawang. By the time i actually reached home, it was nearing 1 already. But strangely, i wasn't really tired. Webcammed till about 2 plus? Then chatted on the phone till 6am plus. Really tired. I gave the Airforce Seminar a miss. But i guess i didn't really want to go in the first place. Rather, i don't think i've ever enjoyed talking to a person that much on the phone. Talking about all sorts of stuff. Really had alot of fun.

But then...the question is, when did all my courage go? Hmmmm....

"Never judge a book by its cover, never judge a person just solely by how they look..." ~Enrrouge~

Time Flies...

2009-09-04T22:44:00.000-07:00

Everything just passes by in an blink of an eye. Before i actually realised it, it one semester is gone. And i still wouldn't have realised that if i didn't talk about it with Henry last night. Its really quick. Fast-paced...and for the first time, i just wish for everything to slow down. Just so that i would be able to enjoy myself more. In one semester, i've had experienced laughter, sadness, and a whole lot of other emotions. Not to mention a failed relationship as well. To think that all this can actually happen in one semester astounds me. I really have to keep track of time before i lose myself. And lose my poly experience. I wanna enjoy this 3 years to the max.

P.S: This post is just pure random. It just got me thinking...

2009-09-02T08:36:00.000-07:00

I guess some people just dunno what their dealing with...don't test my patience people...

Exams Are OVER!!!

2009-08-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

Haha. Finally the exams are over. Been mugging at the library. Seems so long since i've been there. Really bring back memories. But its nice to mug every once in a while. Keeps my head off other stuff. Too many stuff bothering me lately. Can't think straight and an old injuries acting up again. Just sucks.

But now its the holidays. And i honestly dunno what to do. I've a feeling that its gonna be boring again. Time to find a holiday job. Anyone want to go job hunting with me? Weather's really hot today. Stupid global warming...save the earth people. Don't wait till its too late...

"Let the music flow through your soul" ~Enrouge~

I don't know what to say anymore....

2009-08-15T22:04:00.000-07:00

Girl u know i miss u so
I didn't u had to go
We've had enough of our distance babe
Before i had the chance to say
I'm staying with u...
For the rest of my life.

Don't keep telling me these words
U don't know how much it hurts
And I promise u eternity
If u promise me you'll stay
but now its too late
I'm no longer the man
that I was.

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird
who's lost her wings
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my life has to move on
I am a song
without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us

is this song...

This is how i feel...can anyone make me feel better?
I hope you would get my message if u read this.

Follow the bold, and one will never go wrong.

"It hurts whenever i think about u. Were we only meant to be frens?" *Enrouge*

Life doesn't always go the way u want it to...

2009-08-12T07:17:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since i've last blogged. And my tag board is pretty much dead i guess. But who cares... Alot has happened since the last time i blogged. For one, i'm beginning to have my doubts and insecurity. Call me paranoid, maybe i think too much. But that's how i've been feeling recently.

AS module is over. The last test was yesterday. And only then i realised, "I actually don't hate it as much i thought it did." But anyway, i'm glad that its over too. That means i will have one less module to face on the upcoming semester exams.

Watched GI Joe with Amanda. It was fun to meet up with old buddies again. Although it wasn't the entire group. Sometimes, just sitting down and chatting over a cup of coffee can be a good way to catch up and have fun. It was fun catching up with each others lives. And just talking about what we always did in the past. One thing's for sure though, both of us have changed in ways we never noticed. Its just strange, when time takes its toil on you and you don't feel a thing till others point it out to you.

Exams are just around the corner. And i'm studying like i did for Os again. Its time to head back to the library, except that now, i wouldn't be with my study group anymore. But maybe alone or with Amanda. I guess life can't stay at a constant forever. And we all move on while trying to hold on to the fragile past.

Life doesn't always go the way that people want them to. It always twists and turns around. And just when you thought that everything would be peaceful again, there's always something new to prove you wrong. To what i see, we all resolve around three things that we don't really think about: Past, Present, Future. We know that these three things exist. Yet how often do we actually pay attention to them? In my opinion, only when one is aware of the Past, Present and Future, can they actually start to get a grasp of what's precious and dear to them, only then will they start to treasure they're surroundings, and not take them for granted.

Past, Present, Future also revolve around something else as well. Something that we witness everyday, something that touches us, yet we cannot feel it. To some, it would be known as a fourth dimension. Time. Time passes us by everyday. With each passing day, we change little by little. One might not feel it. But its there. That's the one thing that people just don't take notice of. And take it for granted. But what we take for granted is one of the constants in this world. It is something that will never change. It is something that we will all lose to in the end, no matter how hard we try to fight it.

So why not just treasure the time with everyone around you right now? Why not just live everyday to its best? U never know what's it gonna be like for you tomorrow afterall. So why not just live it to the fullest?

~Jervis~

August Rush...

2009-08-09T00:21:00.000-07:00

Listen. Whatever u do, just listen to my blog song. Beautiful.

Thank You

2009-07-30T07:19:00.000-07:00

To: You know who you are. =)

You said...
"thanks for believing in me,
thanks for supporting me,
thanks for being there everytime."

I say now...
That's the least i can do for you.
Its you who brings the colors into my sky.
My (R).

I believe in you, cause trust is everything, and i would trust you with my life.

I support you. Cause i must. Cause i made a vow to do so. Because i believe in what you do. That's why i want to support in what you think is right.

I am always there for you. Because i want to. If i am not there, how would i support you? I will always be watching over you. Be it at the sidelines, or openly. I'll always protect you to the best that i can.

Afterall, you're my (R), my twinnie, you're alot of things to me. Even if u do not know, just know now that you're the precious thing in my life that i have now.

~Jervis~

Cold...Is winter approachin?

2009-07-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

Right now, i'm in school. ON A SATURDAY. WTH right? This is wad last minute work does to you. I still have to come back tomorrow. For ANOTHER project. And i'm hungry. Sucks. Wish projects would just be gone! And the library's air-con is freezing. But that' s not the point of this post i guess.

I've been pretty busy of late. Projects, tutorials, planning stuff. So i just wanna say this....

I'm sorry...
For not spending enough time with u,
for not talking to u for so long.
I won't use "i'm busy" as an excuse,
cause i know it doesn't work.
I'm saying sorry cause i realised that,
I wasn't putting in much effort to talk to you.
Which is my fault.
So i do hope that you'll understand,
that it was not intentional.
That i realise my mistakes.
...
...
Am i too late to realise them?

"Guide me, rainbow. Guide me to the pot of gold at the end" ~Enrouge~

" I will make a mortal more rare than fine gold, A man more than the golden wedge of Ophir" Isaiah 13:12

2009-07-20T07:24:00.000-07:00

Nice title don't you think? And one that makes a person think as well. Just to be clear, this post won't be talking about the above title. The title just happened to be the first thing i saw when i opened the bible.

Now...for the real questions. I need u to take a deep breath, clear your mind...

Then ask yourself this questions...

1. What have you been doing with your life?

2. If you could go back to the past, what would be the one thing that you wanted to change?

3. Do you think that you are living life to the fullest?

I asked myself these questions, and realised that my answers were not really the ideal ones.

We only have this one life, so why do i see some people wasting it? Its just this one life that was given to you. No turning back, no second chances, why not live it to the fullest?

The fact that we were born to this world is rare by itself, as rare than fine gold, its worth more than all the riches in the world. So why do some people squander it away?

Everyone only has one body, but why is it that people are so willing to give parts of their bodies away? Why are they able to part with something so precious? For food? For money? Even if you were rich, what is the point if u are handicapped? That's my own opinion.

I feel that you should treasure life while you still can. It not as long as it seems. The luxury of living can be taken away from you in a blink of an eye.

I'm sure everyone knows the fragility of life, but not everyone remembers it until they lose something important. I'm sure everyone's had that before. And we would all ask the same questions "Why didn't i spend more time? If only i knew this was happening"... Realising all this after its over is too late...

Once its gone, its not going to come back......

So ask yourself those questions above, answer those questions, then find the flaws in your life. Its never too late to change, as long as u learn from your mistakes...

When the rain touches my heart...a new melody shall be born...

2009-07-19T03:55:00.000-07:00

Its gonna rain again...am i'm feeling super suckish. Turning all sad again. Life doesn't seem so bright when you're feeling that way....

Music...What is it to everyone? Is it something that everyone uses as a form of destress? Is it something that people just enjoy listening to? Something that you like because the person singing it is hot or handsome? Are your reasons for listening to music so trivial?....

I know that i might be in no position to say these thing. Afterall, everyone's perception is different. But i pains me when people say that music of the past just can't beat the music of the present....no offense to anyone...but what a joke that is...

Right now, if i would go out to the streets and asked him "Could you tell me the full name of Mozart?" chances are, i would get a stare, or if i'm lucky, i would get the answer "i dunno". But! If i asked "could you name me 5 songs that Avril Lavigne sang?" i would have no problem getting my 5 songs.

What are all teens turning into these days? What happened to the times when music was just music? With no vocal accopaniment, but still being able to express the feelings the composer felt to the people listening to it? Is pop, rock, heavy metal all that matters? Mozart, Haydn, Beethoven, the list goes on. But just how many do people remember these days?

Its just sad to see people forgetting the roots of music. The prodigies that wrote great music. Rather than your pop stars these days...

"Life just isn't the same without you...." ~Enrouge~

WTH!!!

2009-07-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

So vexed, confused, angry, etc etc etc.....

Can't mum's stop nagging for once? This is so frustrating. She must even poke into my appearance. Its my looks, my life. Can't i just live it my way? Life sucks, and rocks.

Today's was lessons as usual lor. Nothing interesting. Lessons, break, practical, go home. Except that i met twin on my way to meet Chu. So she accompanied me to meet Chu. Then we headed down to the ambass room. It was quite fun there. Really high in there. Played tetris (i honestly sucked) and watched useless stuff on youtube (like how a guy is rejected when he tried to propose to the one he loves) but it was still fun chilling out after a tiring day.

Went to eat dinner with Jasmine and Chu Ling. Then went to the arcade to have some fun. Had to cab home in the end though. If not i would have reached home only at 11pm plus.

Broken pieces just form themselves again when i'm with you...
Everything becomes all clear...

"When there's will, there's a way" ~Enrouge~

YLC 3. BEST OF THE BEST!!!

2009-07-12T05:27:00.000-07:00

Back from camp! And i'm missing it already. All the SLs, all the cheers, everything about it! Its my first one and i'm glad i went. Anyone wan to sign up for the next one? Sms me!!!

To my dear campers: THANKS FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL 1st YLC!!! Enjoyed myself. U guys were really independent and are all future potential leaders! I love you guys. You all also taught me alot of stuff. I hope you all learnt as much i did!

To my fellow SLs: Thanks for taking care of me as the only year 1 in the group. We were totally high in the end! Which is good! Had alot of fun with you guys. I also had alot of valuble learning experiences from you guys! Thank you!!! I really love you guys! You guys are the best people that i can ever imagine!

Apache cheers are totally POWER! I think we totally rocked the house down! Hope that the next YLC i attend will be as good as this one!

P.S: In these 3 days, i realised...i could not survive without you...

"Everytime i look at you...i feel so lucky..." ~Enrouge~

Monday Blues...NO MORE!

2009-07-06T08:04:00.001-07:00

The title's a little hyper. Cause i'm feeling a little high rite now. Haha.

Today's CATS lesson was a breeze. Was hanging out at the library when i received a message..."Dear class, pls meet me 4 discussion in groups at level 3 library frm 1pm."... So coincidental!! Haha. I was practically right next to where i was going to have my discussion. And my discussion ended quite early. So we were released early. And we slacked there till i got hungry.

S&W was surprisingly boring today. (Since it is raining) Had to do laps, drills, and even had a THEORY lesson. THEORY LEH!!! Its S&W!!! There isn't supposed to be a theory thingy lor. Almost fell asleep.

After all my lessons ended, still cannot go home. But i dun mind la. POLY EXPERIENCE IS COMING UP!! So excited since its gonna be my first big event. But i'm also quite sad since HAC can't take part in it. (NVM!! LET'S SIGN UP FOR YLC 5 TOGETHER!!!) there's gonna be so many stuff to do. Things are gonna get really busy this week. Projects are flooding in. Lucky i still have someone to motivate me on. =)

Yesterday i saw a rainbow,
Today i saw an angel,
What surprises and blessings will tomorrow bring?

"Some feelings are special and can't be said merely by words, tat's how i feel now." ~Enrouge~

05/07/2009

2009-07-05T05:12:00.000-07:00

Wow. Its been long since i posted. And i know its a little late to say this. But...TRANSFORMERS 2 ROCKS!!! Haha. Totally packed with action. Haha. Never a dull moment.

Been feeling lost recently, totally dunno wad to do for school works or lessons.

Finally managed to clear my part of the ELTECH project. Although there's still some polishing up to do once everyone's submitted their part.

Totally CMI for CATS! I dun even know how to continue after the survey. Must quickly plan everything. And start to design on the "Ways to link NP"!

I'm not paying attention in class again. Sucks. So i don't really understand stuff. Especially Eng Mech AGAIN!!! I have to work harder this time. Trying to focus on something. And not to get distracted.

Everything just seems to be spiraling out of control...

BUT!!!!

I'm really happy right now! 05/07/2009. Is this date as special to me as it is to someone else?

"And it seems like a rainbow's appearing, a rainbow to brighten my sky" ~Enrouge~

Are u gonna kiss me or do i have to lie to my diary (blog)

2009-06-25T08:04:00.000-07:00

My imaginary GF and i will be going to Tokyo tomorrow!!!! Looking forward to it! <3

So alike right? Hahaha! Thx amber for the photos

~R-A-N-D-O-M-N-E-S-S~

2009-06-22T05:21:00.000-07:00

Just felt like writing something down. Feeling real down all of a sudden...

Sometimes the end doesn't really spell the beginning.
And a beginning doesn't always have an end.
We were both born as twins.
So why is it that i got everything instead?
It just isn't fair!
And now u say that you're going away...
How am i suppose to accept the fact that my brother...
who has been in me for 17 years...
will leave me?
Maybe forever?
I can't accept that.
I still have not gotten to know you enough...
There's still so many things I WANT to ask...
so will you not deny me of this chance?
Just stay awhile...
everything will work out by itself...
everything will fall into place...
no problem cannot be solved...
...
...
...
...
..So please stay?...

"And the same things keep repeating themselves" ~Enrouge~

Birthday Celebration with BFFs / T&B CAMP!!!

2009-06-20T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hey!!! I'M OFFICIALLY 17!!!!! Cool right? Haha. Ok...first things first....

THANKS TO GAM AND CLAIRE FOR CELEBRATING MY BIRTHDAY!!! Actually, they celebrated it on monday. Cause i would be busy on tues and wed. But nvm. It was super fun.

Went to Vivo's Marche to eat. Ate till i was really full there. Haha. Funny how a sausage, a piece of not-so-big chicken and a potato thingy can make u soooooo full! Not to mention the crepe at the end. That was the best!!!

We went up to Mount Faber Park. I swear...THAT'S A TOP SPOT FOR EVERYONE TO GO!!!! ESPECIALLY AT NIGHT!!!! There are alot alot of stairs for you to climb b4 u can actually reach the top, and the best thing is...THERE ARE NO LIGHTS!!!! Cool!!! SOOOOOO we walked up there in pitch black darkness while Gam played some music. Sang most of the way there. But the view at the top was B-E-A-UTIFUL!!!!

We went to this place called The Diamond Club. BEST TOILET IN THE WORLD. SUPER CLASSY. And it was voted as one of the best toilets in the WORLD!! Its like better than your hotel and Changi Airport la. I could have slept there if i had a sleeping bag with me. Its cleaner and nicer than my room. They even had an aquarium!!! After that, we left the place and continued walking to this bridge. There was an awesome view on the way up! Anyway, we just sat there and TALKED. Until like 2.30 am before Claire's parents sent us home.

P.S: Really liked the presents guys!!! Thx!!!!

Part 2 (If you're not falling asleep already)

T&B Camp WAS A BLAST!!!!! Maybe at first i didn't really know anyone. But after time, we bonded really close!! Like a big family!

The first day was games from morning till night. Though the afternoon games part was more like knowledge for all of us new ambassadors!!! But they were all really fun!!! I was so hyper that when it was night, i couldn't sleep at all. Stayed up for MOST and chatted of the night. But managed to fall asleep in the end.

Woke up the next morning really tired. Haha. But nvm. Ate breakfast with the group. Then we went for a leadership workshop. It was then that i realised during the workshop that, "Wow. Ambassadors must really be perfect." Haha. The Cream-of-the-crop. The workshop was really cool. Entertaining. We did a personality test, and i realised that my personality type is RARE!!! ONLY 1.8% are the same as me. Muahahahaha!!!!

We had these PT (personalised tour) trainings after the workshop. After the training, I SWEAR TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THE OTHER SCHOOLS AND COURSES IN NP!!!! Must work hard le.

But the main highlight of T&B Camp was the 2nd NIGHT DINNER!!!! Really fun!!! Had a blast. And we saw some pretty good performances. Mark WAS SO FUNNY!! But he really makes the effort in the stuff he does. Haha.

Honestly, I didn't wanna part during the 3rd day. But it was all ok. I learned alot from everyone around me during the 3 days. They all taught me different stuff. And i got to know them better. Guess i'm cant help but be in love wif NP Ambassadors and GROUP 3!!! We guys rock!!! The most PHOTOGENIC group. SAY CHEESE!!!!!

No one's perfect.....

2009-06-14T09:57:00.000-07:00

I just don't understand how people think anymore. Its just too complicating for me i guess. Cant' we all just get along?.......

Sometimes...
I just need u to know.
That i ain't perfect.
That i dun always keep the promises i make.
You can be mad at me...
i know its my fault.
But i'm only human aren't i?
Although i hate to say it.
But there are also limits for me.
I'm not GOD
There will be times when i cannot be there for you.
But i just hope that you'd understand how i feel.
That although i may seem that i do not care,
or that i seen indifferent.
But inside...
its a different story.

What are promises?
Promises aren't all that kiddy.
Promises are links that will keep people linked together.
Links that over time do not break easily.
Some will say,
promises are meant to be broken.
But that doesn't mean that a promises are bad.
A promise is sacred,
a pact,
a bond.
So when a person breaks it,
there has to be a REASON for it right?

There are times when i don't really understand you.
But i don't expect you to understand me fully as well.
But that's the beauty of it.
We learn more about each other everyday...
and day by day,
the bonds grow stronger.
So don't close the door on me yet.
I may seem INSENSITIVE,
EVIL,
ANNOYING,
and alot of other BAD things.

But don't let me go yet.
Give me a chance to know more.
A chance so that one day...
We'll be the best pals...
or maybe more.

"I'm running so hard just to get to the finish line...but why does it still seem so far?" ~Enrouge~

100 Truths

2009-06-06T23:22:00.000-07:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Chocolate Milk
2. Last phone call: Chu Ling
3. Last text message: Xiao Yan
4. Last song you listened to: Sweet Impact - BoA
5. Last time you cried: I had forgotten?

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Dun think so? I dun really understand the question...
7. Been cheated on: No. Or at least i dun think so.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No.
9. Lost someone special: Yes.
10. Been depressed: Yeah.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Drunk, yes. Thrown up, no.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Black
13. Crimson
14. White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yup. Lots and lots!!!
16. Fallen out of love: No.
17. Laughed until you cried: Yeah. Quite a few times
18. Met someone who changed you: Nope. Maybe in the near future?
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yeah
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No. I'm pure!
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: About 75%. Maybe more. Lazy to check
23. How many kids do you want to have: Not even sure if i wanna get married
24. Do you have any pets: No. Not after the last one.
25. Do you want to change your name: No.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: A year ago....I forgot?
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.50am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Multi tasking (watchin anime, studying, listening to music, watchin BoA MVs)
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Finish up my poly education and go to a good uni.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 5 minutes ago?
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Nothing much.
32. What are you listening to right now: Eat You Up - BoA
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Eh? No.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: My eye.
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook
36. What's your real name: Jervis
37. Nicknames: Have alot. Which do u want?
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Monkey
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Elementary?: Naval Base Primary
42. Middle School?: Chung Cheng High School Yishun
43. High school/college?: Ngee Ann Poly
44. Hair colour: Black?
45. Long or short: Short
46. Height: 179-180cm? Not sure
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Nope. Or at least i dun think so
48: What do you like about yourself?: Huh? Eh.... happy-go-lucky attitude?
49. Piercings: None
50. Tattoos: None either. Maybe next time
51. Righty or lefty: Right

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: My left eyebrow. Primary 3
53. First piercing: Dun have
54. First best friend: In kindergarten. Darius
55. First sport you joined: Soccer
56. First vacation: Malaysia / Korea?
58. First pair of trainers: huh?

RIGHT NOW :
59. Eating: nothing.
60. Drinking: super ICED water
61. I'm about to: revise for exams next week
62. Listening to: Eat You Up - BoA
63. Waiting on: finish revising?

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: ehh... not sure
65. Get Married?: Not sure either
66. Career?: A pilot? Somewhere where i can be closest to the skies.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: Shorter?
70. Older or Younger: Somewhere around the middle
71. Romantic or spontaneous: A little bit of both?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both i guess
73. Sensitive or loud: Around the middle too
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship. Ain't that suppose to be obvious?
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Both. Just a little bit of both

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: ehhhh....?
77. Drank hard liquor: Yes.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes.
79. Sex on first date: NO!
80. Broken someone's heart: Dont think so? Dunno.
82. Been arrested: NO.
83. Turned someone down: Yes
84. Cried when someone died: Long time ago. But yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yeah. Isn't that the start of a relationship?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes. I think...
87. Miracles: Hmmm. Depends?
88. Love at first sight: Yeah.
89. Heaven: No.
90. Santa Claus: No.
91. Kiss on the first date: No way.
92. Angels: Aren't i one already? JK! No. I dun beleive

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: NO.
95. Did you sing today?: Nope. Not yet.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: NO.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Sec 2, Stop fooling around and stay in the top class.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Hmmm. Christmas?

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Perhaps perhaps perhaps. Let it be.
100. Posting this as 100truths?: YES.

Tagged (I'm only tagging 10 people, cause i cant possibly think of so many people!!!) :
1. Gamaliel Ma
2. Chan Shi Jun
3. Chermaine Yong
4. Shi Yin
5. Xiao Yan
6. William Hioe
7. William Goh
8. Steven Tham
9. Wen Xin Mei!
10.And whoever who wants to do it.

EXAM WEEK!!!! AHHHHH!!!!

2009-06-04T07:36:00.000-07:00

Hmmm. My first major common test in Ngee Ann has arrived!!!! Taaaaaaa Daaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! *trumpets blowing* ok. That's kinda lame. I just had my ENPS practical test yesterday! Think i did ok. Hopefully i can scrape up an A for it. Aiming to get high marks for my time at my poly. I chose my course, so its time to prove that i made the right choice!!!

Had my AS the other day. Super regret that i studied like hell for it. In the end, the paper only had 20 MCQs and 10 fill-in the blank questions. Worse thing is, i think i lost 1 or 2 marks. Damn sad. Was kinda aimin for full marks. But oh well, i have other stuff to do.

Thought i'd totally screw up fro ENPS. AND I HATE THE PERSON WHO DID THE PRACTICAL BEFORE ME!!!! That person F***ING went to disrupt my equipment la. I had to spend like half an hour just to figure out why i can't get a signal. !@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!@#$%^% wasted half an hour on the signal thingy, and ANOTHER half hour trying to figure out how i can measure my current for my circuit. Damn.... must work harder liao. LUCKY i managed to finish the paper (with some help of course)

I still have like 3 more papers to go till i'm done wif everything. Hopefully i'll be able to do well for all those. *fingers crossed* Back to studying then. Enough of slacking, there'll be enough time during the holidays.

CHIONG ARH!!!!!!!!

When there's a will, there's a way...
When there's NO will, WHERE'S THE WAY???!!!

"Sinking through a everlasting sea" ~Enrouge~

AE Camp!! Rocks On DUDES!!!

2009-05-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

Finally back from my 2 day 1 night camp in school. Had alot alot of fun there with my guys. Especially wif CW. ( Sorry about the stuff we did to u bro. Nothing personal. Its just for fun, laughter, peace and joy) If the other people who are reading this post dunno wad i'm talking about. U can go over to facebook. There will be photos about the camp there (i'll be posting some of course) but... u might wanna watch the video.

Part 1: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=596934002&v=feed&story_fbid=103404639771#/video/video.php?v=192686075573

Part 2: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=596934002&v=feed&story_fbid=103404639771#/video/video.php?v=192725835573

After watchin the video, pls take note. We were NOT bullying. The victim went on his own accord. (Though he didn't really have the option of saying no) Anyway, other stuff happened in the camp too. I will just giv a brief summary. Dun wanna bore u guys down.

Day 1

Met up with the guys at Clementi MRT to buy drinks and food there. Bought a bottle of red wine and Carlsberg too. Checked in at about 6.30. When i first saw where we were gonna stay in, i was WOW!!!! There was a fridge, 3 rooms, 2 bathrooms and a big living rooms with 2 sofa beds. There was even 24hr aircon. ( Look at the pics. You'll know wad i'm talking about) We settled down, then the seniors called us downstairs to play some ice breaker games. Though it wasn't very successful. Think they finally gave up and gave us free and easy for the rest of the night.

We went back to the apartment. Our victim wasn't here yet. So we started a game of RISK. It was quite fun. Though most of them didn't know how to play it. But we did manage to finally get the game in session. Played in the living room till about 11pm when our star finally came. We cleared the room, offed the lights and waited for him. Once he was in the apartment. We quickly grabbed him, and then stuffed him inside a box (you'll see a pic of it ltr) Then we flipped the box round and sat on it so he wouldn't be able to come out. Real evil but funny. Poor guy. After we had our fun, we continued wif our games. The our first disaster struck. OUR AIRCONS IN OUR ROOMS BROKE DOWN!!!! Damn sad la. We had to change to the next door room in the end. But lucky we hadn't really unpacked our stuff, so it was easy to shift rooms. At least we still had 24hr aircons. So no complaints.

I didn't sleep till 5.30 in the morning. We did all kinds of stuff, played poker, blackjack, drank alchohol. (dun learn from me) All in all, i only had 1hr plus of sleep and was damn shack when i woke up to do morning PT.

Day 2

After PT, breakfast was Nasi lemak. Pathetic. But who cares. We went to play soccer after that, then lunch, then we were FINALLY allowed back into our rooms. I could finally take a shower after 12+ hours!!! Shiok feeling. Then i had a quick nap (skipped the movie event) before we had to head down for basketball and captain's ball. It wasn't until then when i realised that the camp was a SPORTS camp. - __ -...

After all the outdoor activities, we went back to shower and start packing up. Cleaned up the entire apartment b4 heading down for the barbecue. After the barbecue, it was decided that we had to have a closing ceremony. So we when we went back to get our bags, we attacked out victim again. That's where the videos came from. So u have to watch it!!!! Headed home after that. By the time i reached home, i was super exhausted!!!! After unpacking and a bath. I went to bed.

So that's all for the entire camp. Tiring but fun. And i think the class really bonded. Past mistakes were forgiven and we really learned and understood each other better. That's how i feel anyway. Now i shall post up the pictures...

The Bathroom. Cool right!!!

Our Box!!!

So these are the pics that i took. For more, you'll have to go on to facebook to see. (the better ones are there.) And that'll be all for this post. Still suffering from fatigue and have to study for my AS test on tuesday!!! Wish me luck! I'm so gonna fail...

思い出したんだ　君の唄を　切なく想う気持ちを
裸のままの心を

Why does it seem so...dark...? ~Enrouge~

v10 [DIFF] [EDIT]

I hold feelings that are suspended in space
Today, time is passing by too much
Every time I stare at you, my heart is filled
with thoughts but I still can't convey them well

Without realizing it, I forgot to follow the place where tears are produced

Now open your eyes to those tears conversely
Let it fly in order to reach that hand

I remember your song and painfully thought about your feelings

I've watched this drama so many times　
I always felt just like that
The moment you gave me a smile,
a new story began

The faded days, hanging suspended in space; I knew they were filled with color

Now open your eyes, replace your loneliness with something more
Find your lost courage and hold it high!
I remember now the tears I was holding back
I'll take your hand and our story will begin

Ah, I passed a thousand nights to arrive here
It's okay to get hurt, say it now!

Now open your eyes; You were shaking alone
and I grabbed your hand in order to tell you my feelings

I remember your song and painfully thought about your feelings
with my naked heart

meh i think there are a few problems
like the tenses don't match up

-- by voxanimus at 01:57:53 am 07/05/08

well my was put there when it was only the lyrics to the shortened version. these lyrics from what i can tell with my limited japanese seem perfect.

-- by brolly at 12:09:03 am 07/05/08

My apologies for the on-off lyrics, translating the official lyrics is a little tough. Feel free to change the kanji lyrics to fit the 'mediocre' romanji lyrics & vice-versa.

-- by izumo at 08:03:14 pm 07/04/08

it seems from listening to the song and reading the lyrics at the same time there are some errors. i'd like someone else to do this and see if they here them also.

-- by brolly at 02:23:45 am 07/04/08

Change history for Romaji lyrics:

Version #10 by riiyachan at 10:15:23 am 05/23/09
Version #9 by darkxrikku at 12:18:34 pm 04/23/09
Version #8 by kadrinchan at 05:18:42 pm 03/03/09
Version #7 by darkxrikku at 10:07:03 am 02/09/09
Version #6 by darkrxchibi at 05:08:34 pm 07/31/08 (Reverted)
Version #5 by kaluar at 09:38:56 pm 07/23/08
Version #4 by morinozuka_takashi at 05:07:48 am 07/08/08
Version #3 by izumo at 08:01:28 pm 07/04/08
Version #2 by izumo at 07:26:51 pm 07/04/08
Version #1 by flurgadher81 at 09:19:40 pm 07/03/08

Change history for English lyrics:

Version #10 by riiyachan at 10:14:56 am 05/23/09
Version #9 by riiyachan at 10:03:58 am 05/23/09
Version #8 by riiyachan at 09:57:40 am 05/23/09
Version #7 by riiyachan at 09:52:11 am 05/23/09
Version #6 by voxanimus at 01:56:16 am 07/05/08
Version #5 by voxanimus at 01:51:23 am 07/05/08
Version #4 by voxanimus at 01:49:26 am 07/05/08
Version #3 by izumo at 08:29:31 pm 07/04/08
Version #2 by darthpanda at 05:49:01 pm 07/04/08
Version #1 by darthpanda at 05:46:51 pm 07/04/08

Change history for Discuss lyrics:

Version #6 by voxanimus at 01:57:53 am 07/05/08
Version #5 by brolly at 12:09:03 am 07/05/08
Version #4 by izumo at 08:03:14 pm 07/04/08
Version #3 by izumo at 07:27:46 pm 07/04/08 (Reverted)
Version #2 by brolly at 02:23:45 am 07/04/08
Version #1 by brolly at 02:20:19 am 07/04/08 (Reverted)

Change history for Kanji lyrics:

Version #1 by izumo at 07:40:37 pm 07/04/08

Life So Far....

2009-05-16T23:32:00.001-07:00

Hey there!!! Decided to post something on again. Even if its super random. Tomorrow will be the day to see if i got into NP Ambass!!!! Hope i really get in sia. (Though i'll have ice skating to fall back on. It ain't bad either)

Went for the ice skating session last last friday? It was a blast. Haha. I can finally move. But now. I can't brake. Feel so helpless on the ice. But its fun. People, try ice skating. You won't regret it one. Confirm!!!

Anyway, so far in school, my class has been a real blast. I haven got round to taking an entire class pic cause there are always some people who are not there. So sad. But i promise i'll post one up. The modules....suck. Well, not all of them. But mostly engineering mechanics and aviation systems. They suck big time. I'm like strugglin lik hell. Haiz. Wad to do? Haha. And i have a eng mech quiz on tues. Haiz. I can see white hair growing already.

Weather's been really hot recently, so people, TAKE CARE!!! Dun get all sick or heat stroke or watever sickness u get when the weather's too hot. Really got nothin to do now lor. Super sian. Play games also play till sian liao. Think i'll go revise later on. For the test. (Omg. I actually thought of revisin work.. ~break through~ )

Known alot of people since i entered poly le. And made some great frens. Frens who are super super super tolerant of me at times. Haha. I really have to give credit to them, cause sometimes when i go high, there's no stoppin me!!! And realised just recently, i dun like anyone now, i was like WOW. I finally managed to NOT have a crush on a girl. Tat's new.

Been thinking of stuff recently. More to the Fate / Chance lines. Does fate really exist? So was it fate that i met someone? Or was it by chance? How do i even know? How does one define fate and chance? And where is the line that separated the two? It just seems weird. The actions that we do, the emotions that we feel, was it already pre determined by something long ago? that we would feel this way, that we would act this way. Or was it chance? Things that we chance upon. Purely by conicidence? I dunno...

あの日見た空　茜色の空も　ねぇ　君は忘れたのでしょう
約束　契り　初夏の風に消えた　二人戻れない

...And My Music Just Goes On And On... ~Enrouge~

Honestly...honestly...

2009-04-28T09:26:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm. Kinda living my life in routine now... Wake up, do my stuff, get ready for school, travel, lessons, do homework in school wif pals, go home, play comp, sleep... Pure routine. And its getting boring... How do i get outta this cycle? Sigh...feel lik my energy's getting sapped up abit more everyday, just wanna lie down and just STAY DOWN!!!!

Been thinking lately, random questions. But this question kept popping up to myself..."Have i been honest with myself?"... turns out, i guess my overall answer's a no. Have i been honest with my feelings? NO... Have i been honest in reading my symptoms? NO... Have i been honest to my own emotions? Sadly, also a NO...I'm getting more confused by the day...

Today, i think i freaked a kid out. I just looked at him. LOOKED!!! I didn't do anything. And then he cried... Am i that scary? Do i really look that fierce? Maybe...i dunno. But i didn't choose to be this way. I did not. But the world doesn't really seem to understand me.

I have said this before. I'm not a perfect person, but i'm still a person. I have feelings, i have emotions. So can u pls be more considerate to how i feel? If i don't tell u something, that's because i have my reasons. Don't probe me. I'll tell you when i think its time for you to know, when i myself cannnot rectify the situation. Then i shall let you know. If not, i don't wish to let anyone worry. It may seem like i'm a selfish person to you. But please try to understand.

The day before, while on my way to school, i saw the sun. It was red. Blood red. Yet it seemed beautiful. Like a masterpiece. It actually calmed me. That was the first sun rise i had seen after many months.

Then yesterday, i saw the most beautiful sunset i have seen yet. The dying light kind of captivated me. And somehow i didn't want that moment to end. I was asked, "Do you like the sunrise or sunset more?" I would say both. I love both. The sunrise is like the birth of a new life, shining not so brightly yet, but filled with potential. The noon sun would be the peak of a person's life. The pinnacle, where their potential and talents shine the brightess.

And then comes the sunset. Whose light fades. Its like a dying man. Knowing that death is inevitable, but continuing to fight, but losing out in the end. That's the cycle of the sun. The cycle of a human life.

I would love the sky more than anything else. Its beautiful. And it could mean so many things. And can also signify life. The sun would signify your spark of life, the clouds would be all the obstructions in life, and once they past, you'll shine brighter than before. And sometimes, rainbows would appear, those would be your acheivements in life, your happiness. And in the endless blue sky, where everyone seems indifferent, you'll be the only different one. The one to step out, the one to shine, the one that brings life to everyone. That's how beautiful the sky is. However, these words can only express a fraction of my fascination and awe.

This post is something that i've wanted to post for a long time, but i couldn't find the words for it. Now i can rest better. I'm not the person that i say i am. I'm not the personality that i seem to express with my actions. No...i'm much deeper than that. Much deeper than anyone can imagine... ... ...i can only hope that one day, someone will understand me a little better, that someone will be able to fly in the same sky that i'm flying in now... ... ...

空は飛べないけど　翼ならあげよう
それは「もうひとりじゃない」と
君の孤独剥がす言葉
どんな悲観論者(ペシミスト)も　恋をして変わる
選んだ道がもし行き止まりならそこで
迷えばいい

~Covered by a Veil, That's who I am~ ...Enrouge...

Hey....New Post...Finally!!!!!

2009-04-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

Hiya again!!! Finally able to post some stuff online. Homework has really been getting me down. Have to learn A Maths stuff all over again, with a need addition...Engineering Maths. Can die.

Anyway, about day 1 at my new school!!! First day of school, and i dun have any lessons with my AE class. Super sad. I had other modules which involved lessons with students from other courses. I made new frens of course. And the first lesson i had was CATS (Creativity and Applied Thinking Skills) My teacher was kinda nice? Haha. She was pretty friendly, although i dun know whether cause it was the first lesson or wad... anyway, i made new frens there. Then i had to go off for S&W. The first lesson wasn't much. Just about choosing the sport that you wanted to focus on for this module. I chose basketball, along with another fren. I sure pity those who chose some map reading sport for their midule. Haha.

Went off to the CCA fiesta after that. Signed up for a total of 8 different CCAs? (i forgot) My plan is to go to the first session for all of them, and then see if i like it. If i dun like it, then i won't continue going. Haha. Really evil. But its still a good plan. Haha.

The first week..was basically hectic? Hanging out with new frens, coping to learn new stuff, finding your way around campus. Really a different experience from sec school. Still, i dun regret it. And i manage to finish all the homework i was given in the same week? Cool right? I can finally be free on my weekends. HAHAHAHAHA. Anyway, haven really settled in yet. There's still alot i needa learn.

Today's post willbe really short. I'll end here. Cause i dunno wad else to say. Insufficient sleep can make your brain work weird. So i'll sign off here. Cya!!!!!

羽根が無い天使は　ぼくに言った
家へと帰る　地図をなくした

~Confused...who is it who is in my heart now?...~ ...Enrouge Cross...

Gam's Birthday Party!!! / 17 Again

2009-04-18T05:33:00.000-07:00

Ok. I know i'm kinda late in updating up on Gam's birthday party. Since it passed like so long ago. But i guess i didn't have enough time (or rather maybe i was lazy?) So...i'll try to update it to the best i remember.

I was supposed to meet Gam and Claire at Khatib MRT, they were coming from Yishun. But then some misunderstanding, then i ended up going to Yio Chu Kang first while they alighted at Khatib. Super funny and weird. But we still managed to meet up in the end. Then we travelled to Vivo. Shopped for awhile where i bought my new mouse there. I thought the design was quite cool.

nice right? Haha. Anyway, we met up wif Amanda later, then we went to eat at earle's swensens. Its supposed to be another version of the normal swensens. Except that i can't really tell the diff. Maybe cause there's a salad bar which the normal swensens does not possess? I dunno. When we looked at the menu, we were like "waaa....the portions like very small leh." Tat was wad i thought at first. But since it was the restaurant with the shortest queue, (everywhere else was packed) we ate there anyway. But when the food came, we made a mistake lor. The servings are quite ok actually. Plus, Claire and Amanda practically filled themselves with just the SALAD before the food even came. Haha. The food tasted great. And we SOMEHOW managed to finish everything. By the time we finished the food, paid the bill and left, it was almost time for the movie. But i still had to check out a Zinc shop. Was trying to shop for a backpack then. But then due to the lack of time, we only had time for a quick look before we took some group pics and then left for the movie. Amanda went home though. Cause she said she didn't want to watch 'Knowing'.

The movie was... ... ...disturbing at some scenes? Especially the starting and all the accidents. Super disturbing. And it freaks you out to know that these accidents can actually occur in real life at any moment. *Shudder* But the ending was a happy one i guess? The world is destroyed but then at least there are survivors to start everything again. I would reccomend people to catch this show. Its really good. If you won't have nightmares at night and you dun freak out tat easily lik Claire. I totally freaked her out when we were heading out of the theatre i think. I suddenly turned back and frightened her. She did wad every girl who was freaked out did...she screamed. And boy, it was loud and sharp. My ears hurt. And the people walking in front of us turned back lor. Haha. I was laughing so hard. Even funnier was when Claire and Gam told me about this guy sitting beside her. A GROWN man. And he's as brave as Claire. Or maybe Claire has more courage than him. What's everyone turning into these days. Haiz... *shakes head* Anyway, i would rate 'Knowing' 8 out of 10. (8/10). Its good, but sometimes it doesn't make sense too.

After the movie, we headed home. Managed to catch the LAST train home. Super lucky. I've never sat on the last train. So it was pretty cool. Especially when u hear that the station was closing, i was wondering like, "Wow. So thay do have opening and closing hours..." Reached home, bathed and then hit the sack. Totally exhausted.

Some pics first... (btw, this post is gonna be long)

Studying Clique...Love them to the MAX!!!

Ok...now for today's post. Went to Bugis in the morning with my family. Ate brunch at some Roti Prata stall at Thompson before heading to Bugis. Then met up with Amanda at Bugis to help me choose my backpack. I FINALLY GOT MY BACKPACK!!! I'd say it looks pretty much. It might not look much, but to me it looks gorgeous. Haha.

I'm happy...

Anyway, continuing... went shopping wif Amanda for awhile. Then cause Bugis like nothing to walk, we went to Orchard. Went to buy tickets for '17 Again'. Then, since we still had about an hour plus to spare, we went to Wisma for more shopping. Amanda bought some stuff there. But the funny thing was, for all the clothes that she wanted to buy, she couldn't find her size for all of it. Definitely not her day. Haha. Then we went back to Cineleisure to watch the movie. It totally rocked! '17 Again' is definitely a nice show. To me la. But its not up to my "must watch" rating yet.

Zack Efron was great. Good acting. Nice plot, alot of funny scenes. Good show. Some teachings about morales too. Kinda deep. Haha. But it was enjoyable. I dun really have anything to say about it. But to me, i'll rate it a 7 out of 10 (7/10). And i have to thank Amanda for watching it again with me!!! Thx girl!!!

So tat's about wad happened today. Nothing much. So i'll end off here today. Till next time then. Cya!!!!

好きになることにおびえていた
好きになることで傷つけた
思い出にできず　あおぐ空が
まぶしすぎて　落ちる涙

...I live by the cross of sins...can no one lift this curse from me?... ~...Enrouge Cross...~

Update / Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion

2009-04-10T11:08:00.000-07:00

Date: 11th of April
Time: 2:13am

...Log Start...

Its late at night. And somehow i just can't get to sleep. So i thought about updating my blog.

I just finished the book 7 Deadly Wonders by Matthew Reilly. Its really really good. Pure thriller and suspense. It just made me want to continue reading on and on. I can hardly put the book down. Other books by Matthew Reilly include Contest, Ice Station, Area 7, Temple, Scarecrow and The Six Sacred Stones. All the books are just as good as the other. So i would recommend any bookworm to read it.

Speaking of books, i had a major haul today. Think i bought a total of 5 books? Went to Tampines Mall with my parents and sis. Bought 2 books there from SAN Bookshop. Its a nice bookshop. U can even sell books that u dun feel lik reading anymore to them. Profitable. I also went to Zinc to Checkout some backpacks. Found 2 that i really lik. PLUS!!! They also included laptop bags in them. A bargain right??!!! I'll be wanting to go back there again to buy those bags. Anyone interested to accompany me? And i am also eyeing a mouse which i saw at Popular. I can only hope that Northpoint's Popular has the mouse design that i want. Or maybe something better.

Went off to Changi Airport Terminal 3 next. Went there to eat. And that was where i bought my next 3 books. ( they were having an offer. 3 for he price of 2!!!) i managed to find 3 books that i wanted which was on offer. So i might as well have bought them. Then it was the trip back home. That pretty much sums up the day since i spent the rest of it at home playing games.

And coming to the topic on computer games. I just started on the new Asiasoft game Rappelz. Its something like Cabal, or maybe alot like Cabal. Except that things are a little more to the Medieval side of things.But i still enjoy it anyway. I'm currently at lvl 31 only. Aiming to reach the second job before my school starts. If anyone's playing this game as well, inform me yeah? It'll be good to have more frens around.

And now for the anime part. Actually i finished Code Geass quite sometime ago. It was after Clannad of course. (Which i still think is the best school life + romance + comedy + tradegy anime i've ever watched) Code Geass is....hmmmm....cool? Imagine yourself having special powers that can manipulate the person's mind. Cool right? The main character is Lelouch Lamperouge/ vi Brittania. His past...complicated. Something you'd have to find out yourself when u watch the anime. They're also other sub-main characters like C.C, Suzaku Krurugi, Nunally Lamperouge and Kallen Stadtfeld/ Kozuki. The anime is clever in its own way, it has two seasons which are kinda interelated, yet not so. And you'll get to see brilliant tactics and strategies pulled off buy our main character and other characters in the anime. Its good. But somehow it jus doesn't meet some of my requirements. If there's a need to rate it, i would give it 7.5 out of 10 stars (7.5/10). True, the abilities are cool, the machines are wicked sick and some parts of the show are unexpected. But it still lacks a certain element in its plot. And it can get pretty confusing at times. But still, watch Code Geass. Maybe you'd have a different opinion.

Currently watching: Full Metal Alchemist, Bleach

Animes finished but yet to comment: Toradora, Skip Beat, Fate/Stay Night...

So i'll be signing off here for today morning. Gonna try catch some shut eye now. Cya...

罪の最後は涙じゃないよ
ずっと苦しく背負ってくんだ
出口見えない感情迷路に
誰を待ってるの？
白いノートに綴ったように
もっと素直に吐き出したいよ
何から　逃れたいんだ
…現実ってやつ？

"I'm not alone...am I?"...Enrouge Cross...

*~unconfirmed feelings~*
...Log End...

Clannad Rules. Anime intro!!!!

2009-03-28T05:21:00.000-07:00

Haven't been doing much these days. Annoyed some people i think. Not that i'm really close with them. So not that i really care too. Hmmmm. Life's too short to be wasted on these kind of stuff i guess. I got a present from a friend today. its a nice necklace. With one side saying 'Chance' and the other side saying 'fate'. It could be pretty useful i guess. Could wear a different side everyday. And see how the day turns out. I just might get lucky!

I've been watching more Jap Anime recently. But i'm paying more attention to the music rather than the show sometimes. -_-"... But its just that sometimes the lyrics can be so beautiful and meaningful. Some people ask why i like Japanese Anime Songs so much.

1. It looks nice to hear and looks nice to write too.

2. The lyrics of the songs is beautiful.

3. The composition itself is nice.

Those are the reasons i can think of right now. I just finished off Clannad. Both season one and two. Its a MUST WATCH!!!! It really good. Made me tear quite a couple of times. The first season doesn't really have that much sad scenes. But there's a balance between comedy and sad stuff.
Clannad After Story is a different situation. Half the time in the later part of the anime i think i was almost tearing all the way. Its just so good. And the music is good too. I really like the first opening of Clanad After Story. The lyrics are meaningful too. Its a nice song. "時を刻む唄" (Toki o Kizamu Uta) Haha.

Before u play the videos, pls pause the music player at the side.<<<<<<< It will disrupt the music...

This is the opening of Clannad After Story...

This would be the full version...

I would really ask u guys to watch it. Animeseason .com has it. So pop by to watch it. even if you're not an anime fan. Its really good. I'll be signing off here for today. Haha. Time to seach for new animes to watch...cya...

いつまでも　覚えてる
なにもかも変わっても
ひとつだけ　ひとつだけ
ありふれたものだけど
見せてやる　輝きに満ちたそのひとつだけ
いつまでもいつまでも守っていく

Weird Days...

2009-03-24T05:25:00.000-07:00

Hmmm. Right now it seems to me day almost everyone's having an interesting time. And things are getting weirder. Everything suddenly happens so fast. Now i wonder if i should have gone off to JC with u guys. Maybe i'd be more updated with stuff right now. Anyway, i just posted this up cause i wanted to say a few things to my pals.

To: Claire,
Hey! I dunno whether i should actually congratulate u or feel sad for u. Its kinda like a mixed feeling right now. Haha. But somehow, i guess u made the right choice. At least now me and Gam won't have to worry abt u so much. On the other hand, i guess u have another problem coming up eh? Guess its true. That the "End of something is just the beginning of another". I'll be wanting to see how u handle this new love problem. Haha. I wish u good luck in everyway possible.

To: Gam,
Your mixed feelings cleared up now? I really would wanna know. And make up your mind already. Dun keep using "i think". It won't solve nothing u know? It'll probably turn out fine if the feeling doesn't change. I support anyway. And change your habits will ye? Stop being the sacarstic s*** around me only. Haha.

Oh yeah. I'll be changing my blog URL soon. Maybe from thursday onwards.

walking-onwards-to-fate.blogspot.com

tat'll be my url, and that'll be my goal for now.

To walk away from the past.
To walk towards what the future holds.
To live life as what the present unfolds.
That'll be my goal for now...
...Because right now...
...there isn't anything i can do...
...but continue moving...
...to walk...
...onwards to fate...

なぜ人は傷つけ合うの

なぜ別れは訪れるの

...What Am I?....

2009-03-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

Wasn't there a time when everyone was happy and fulfilled,
where are those times now?
When i look at the three of you now,
i just feel that i just ain't part of the family now.
It feels as if bonds are breaking,
it feels as if i dun belong here anymore.
You take notice of me after prompting,
is that how it really should be?
You curse God at times as to why i was born,
but wasn't it you who made me so?
You made my past,
you control my present,
you determine my future.
Where is my freedom?
It was you who made me to the beast i am today.
A coward who has to put on many masks to run from reality.
A person who acts cheerful outside by yearns for real companions at heart.
A person who doubts everyone's intentions,
be it good or bad....
....
...
...
...and yet u still place the blame on me...
...and cursed the day u gave birth to me...
...
...Just wad am i?...
...What Am I To U?...

When the bonds break and the truth is revealed...
When my past is forgotten and my future untold...
When i can finally love and be loved again...
Perhaps that's when i shall truly be free...

Forgotten Musics...

Back From Holidays

2009-03-17T23:43:00.000-07:00

Beautiful ain't it? Haha. I'm finally back from my holiday at Genting. Really brought back some fond memories. I managed to snap these pics by luck. Cause hours later it started raining. During my 4 days there, it was only like rain and mist there. The weather was only clear on my 3rd day there. Managed to go to the outdoors. And for the record, this is the first time only spent 3hrs at the Cybercafe. Cause the rates are really expensive la. 30RM for an hour. Daylight robbery. Terrible. But i had fun there. It was my first Genting trip which i actually did some shopping for myself and bought some stuff.

Woke up at 5am on Saturday to get ready for everything. Cabbed down to the Golden Mile Complex. Bus left at 7.30. We only had two stops along the way. But the trip to Genting wasn't that all out boring. At least the bus had some movies for me to watch. Old movies, but still movies neverthe less. The trip took abt 6-7 hours. My Dad go kinda sick on the way up. Think he vomitted once. And to think he drives too. Haha. We spent another 2 hours plus trying to check in to our hotel. The lobby was bloody packed. But we finally got our rooms. The rooms were...tiny? I don't really know how to describe them. They were about the size of my living room (inclusive of the bathroom area) that's how small it was. Lucky my parents got two rooms. If not it would have been pretty cramped.

I tried alot of new stuff this time. I finally dared to sit on the Spaceshot. (Where u go super super high and suddenly u drop) It was exciting. I was swearing on the way down. And i counted. It approximately takes 10 seconds for u to be dropped once you hit the top. so i was kinda ready for it. No sweat. Haha. Sat on all the rides at the outdoor theme park. Never really knew it could be so much fun. Haha. I went to watch 4 movies during this trip. All of them are crap. Waste of time and money.
1. Watchmen is a movie disaster. Its about 3hrs long and is super stupid and boring. Lousy.

2. Dragonball Evolution was not really good either. Except for the fact that Jamie Chung was hot. Haha. that's the only positive comment you'll get from me about the movie.

3. Love Matters. Funny. And like every other Jack Neo movies, teaches you something. But just not the type for me.

4. Race To Witch Mountain. Now this is wat i call a movie. It would have been even better if the show was longer. Everything happened so fast until it was like the entire show took place in 48hrs. But it was still good. A thriller, funny, and cool. You can try to watch this one. Maybe you'll like it.

I finally managed to taste the Piazza Hut on Genting again. It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better than the ones in SG. The difference is astounding. If you happen to go up to Genting next time, the Pizza Hut at First World is a MUST TRY!!!

Anyway, i've almost covered all the highlights of my trip. So that's about all. So till next time. Oh, and i took some photos of some monkeys. Some them on the way back. Pure luck. And they were so cute. Haha. Anyway, till next time then. Cya....

When i look up, i see the clouds, i see their freedom, their beauty. When would i be able to fly amongst them. When will i finally gain my freedom from these chains.....

Hey Hey!!!! Back!!!

2009-03-11T03:52:00.000-07:00

YO!! I'm back again after a long break. Actually, i've been online everyday, its just tat i was pretty lazy. I've been watching animes almost everyday. Its been pretty boring. I'm currently sick again. Haiz. First, fever, then , flu, then cough. I'm now at the cough stage. Taking medicine later.

WHOOP!!!!! I finally got my laptop. I'm posting this from my laptop too. Haha. Guess i'll be abale to come online more often now ba. Hope so. Went to Ngee Ann with Jai Le and Rui Xiang today to buy laptops. Waaaa. Rui Xiang was like super fast lor. He just thought for awhile then went to buy the laptop he wanted. Guess he knew wad he was doin eh? Hmmmm. From Feb till now, nothing much has changed. I'm still fine. Oh, and i got a job at Cafe Cartel @Plaza Singapura. Its ok. The staff there aren't too friendly at first. Got scolded myself quite a few times. But after awhile, everything turns out fine. So i'm happy working there. But i've been working at CWP recently, for my pillow fair. But its still fun. Since i knew almost everyone there. Met up with Amanda and Claire during my work at CWP too. Gosh, i miss my studying group. Pity we're all separated now. Sad. But we'll still be able to stay in contact i guess.

I'm going off to Genting on Saturday!!! Haha. I'll finally get to visit there again. Its been a long time since i've been there. Kinda miss it. Hope i'll still have as much fun as i had during the last time i was there. I resolve not to spend so much time at the computers. (Though tat'll nv happen. I'm hooked!!!) SO how's everyone been doing? I'm really curious. If u happen to read. Leave a tag. Will be gald to hear from u. Thanks. Ok. I have to eat dinner, stomach's growling. So i'll stop here. Cya!

RaNdOm / Saturday Change

2009-02-05T22:44:00.000-08:00

Nothing to do at home. Nothing much to do outside too. The only thing i look forward to is night soccer lor. Think i'm turning into a pig la. Everyday, i sleep at 1 plus. Then wake up at 1-2pm. Haha. I should really break off this habit sia. But there just isn't anything to do. I'm dead bored.

But...at least yesterday wasn't as bad. Haha. Was supposed to wake up early at 7 plus to meet the team for soccer. But then overslept and woke at 10 plus. Quickly rushed down only to find that the field wasn't open. Waste of time la. Haha. Ended up playing soccer. It was still fun anyway. So still ejoyed it. After that, went home to change then went off with team AGAIN to expo for the Nike Warehouse Sale. Extremely disappointing. There wasn't anything much there. Didn't buy anything at all. But still alot of team bonding anyway. Then i went home to change AGAIN before heading down to the CC for badminton. Haha. Didn't really exert myself since it was pretty relaxed. Then went off wif william and wesley for their dinner. I just ordered drinks and watched them eat lor. Wanted to head off to their house but it was too late. It was around 10.45 when i reached home. Super super tired. Fell asleep almost straight after hitting the bunk. So didn't really have time to blog. But it was a fun day. Certainly a change from my boring schedule. Haiz. Still looking up fo a job lor... anyone know any offers? Giv me a call. Thanks...

So that's all lor. I'm still trying to upload the pics i promised previously. So giv me sometime yeah. Maybe tomorrow or something. Cya!!!

Thinking..Thinking...Thinking... / Chinese New Year!!!

2009-01-24T05:36:00.000-08:00

Back again. Think blog is going stagnant soon. Haha. But who cares. Dun really have much stuff to blog about anyway. Everyday's always the same. Wake up late, slack, watch tv, use comp, slack abit more, then sleep very late. Its getting boring. I wish i could go to school again sia. I'm missing everthing about it. The school uniform, the lessons, i even miss the food. Conclusion: I'm going MAD!!! Haha.

I have also been thinking about stuff. Cause i have nothing to do. Its weird la. I've been saying that i want to change lately, but i've been finding it hard. Dunno why. Haha. But i'm changing bit by bit. Dun think i'm as crazy as i was. And i think i've gotten more control over my temper. Guess that's a good thing. Think i've grown quieter to an extent too (dunno if its good or bad)... ...worse thing is, i'm kinda in a dilemma. About wad i will not say. But it sucks when u can't make up your mind about stuff.

Went off to pay respects to my deceased grandfather two days ago. Damn, i sure miss him. But there ain't nothing i can do... Sigh ... Anyway, while waiting for all my aunts and uncles to arrive, i went for a walk around the temple. The scenery was beautiful. There were all sorts of flowers la. Pure beauty at its best. I started taking snapshots of the flowers. Super random. But the pics turned out nice. Will post them up later.

Anyway, now for the second part. The Chinese New Year celebrations. This year was kinda special, cause i only spent one day to finish visiting all my relatives. Then i spent the whole of yesterday lazing around and almost getting bored to death. Anyway, think i only earned 10 bucks on gambling. 2009 just isn't my year i suppose. Haha. But i collected a grand sum of 400+ for my hong bao money. Not alot, but i'm not complaining, its the economic reccession afterall. Other than that, i dun suppose there's anything else worth mentioning, except for the fact that I WANNA GO OUT!!!! Haha. To catch a movie or anything. I dun mind. Haha. So whoever's free, just giv me a ring, and i'll be over. Haha. Or else its gonna be a boring week. Haha. Just the house and me...

Ok. I gotta end off here cause i needa get my lunch. So until the next post then. Cya!!!

P.S: Pics upload next time. Cause my comp now abit sort sort. Sorry

Choices...Choices...Choices

2009-01-16T06:42:00.000-08:00

Ok. Its been like how long since i've updated? Hmmm. Guess i'm feeling better already. And i've finally submitted my form on my choices. Hmmmm. 14 pts really sucks. Its like in the middle of everything. Can't go anywhere. Its not too bad or not too good neither. Haiz.....

Anyway, here's my first 5 choices. (cause i can only remember the first 5) ;))

1. Aerospace Technology (Ngee Ann Polytechnic)
2.Aerospace Electronics (Ngee Ann Polytechnic)
3. Aerospace Electronics (Singapore Polytechnic)
4. Yishun Junior College (Science)
5. Yishun Junior College (Arts)

Haha. So there u have it. Sorry to Eileen yeah? Looks like I won't be your senior. Haha. Hope i can get in to my first choice. Its been weird lately. I'm getting sick more easily. Right now, i'm down with flu, cough and fever. Really sucks. But i guess i'll live.

Guess i gtg soon. Have to get some rest. Really exhausted. Good luck to all my pals. Hope u guys get what u want!!! Cya...

O Level Results...

2009-01-12T05:11:00.000-08:00

Sucked. It really sucked. That's wad i have to say. Shit man. L1R4: 14 ... L1R5: 17. F_cked up. Where can i go man??? Life sucks, the world sucks...depressed and sick with fever now. Haiz... I supposed its time for a new change now. A tremendous change. Change of frens, change of attitude, change of personality. Think i'll remain moody and emo for the rest of the year then... i'm not missed. I won't be missed. This sucks.... I'll just vanish then...without a sound...without a sound...without a sound.... ... ...

Yesterday...But not today... =p

2009-01-08T04:56:00.000-08:00

Ok...i know the title's lame. But that was the first thing that came to my mind.... ... ...anyway, time for another update. Had a fun time yesterday. Went off on a trip with Claire and Gam and Claire's mum. We were supposed to go do eat at some restaurant. But then cause Gam late, then we decided to eat at Orchid Country Club. But it was still good. The scenery there was beautiful. Maybe one day i shall move back to nature or travel the world. Hmmmm.

After lunch, we went to NTU to see see. It was fun. Haha. We got a personal tour by Claire's cousin i think? We got to see the dorms. Its kinda spacious. Two beds, two desks. I could get used to life there. If i can get into a unversity that is. We got to sit in a lecture. Strange thing is, the lecturer spent lik mins just for an intro. When we left, she was still doing her intro. Wasted. Haha. Then we went off to SMU to see. I took a short nap in the car.

When we arrivied at SMU, we decided to go to the admin block first. Played around the area. As a bonus, we also found an unlocked lecture hall. We were playing all the way la. And Claire's mum accompanied us. Have to thank her. Should be hard trying to control 3 sixteen year olds teens. Haha. Then we went off to the different schools. Had dinner at some food court, during dinner, i received a message syaing that O lvl results are coming out on the 12TH OF JAN. Die la. Super nevous. Haha. I'm damn scared. But i tried my best. I did my best. So i have no regrets anymore. Just pray and hope then. Haha. To all the people who are getting their results too, good luck!!! Hope we have the results we all hope for!!!!

Ok then. Till next time. I gtg. Pics at the bottom. Cya!!!!

From 2nd Jan till Today...

2009-01-06T05:43:00.000-08:00

Ooooookkkk. I'm back A...G...A...I...N... First things first. I'VE FINALLY STOPPED WORK!!!! NOT WORKING ANYMORE!!! Whoop!!! Its been real hectic during my working days. But at least its better than my Taka job. A hundred times better. My supervisor this time was much more friendlier. And my workmates were great as well. Didn't take alot of pics thought. Just a few.

Anyway, on the 2nd of Jan... The Popular fair ended. Meaning Zi han and Ee Ting were free. Haha. They went for the closing day. Then went to visit me and Sebas. I had to go off arly that day for my piano lesson. So i met up wif Ee Ting and Zi Han. Sebas came along too. We sat at Subway for awhile. Then we went home. Took quite i few pics before that.

Some pics before i go on to the next chapter. I wanted to try out the camera on my new phone. ;) (this will be quite a long post)

Ok. Next chp. The next day, i went to work as per usual. but then i went to my service too. Finally, after lik god knows how long, i can fanally go service. Was so happy to see everyone again. Overjoyed. Talked to some frens and took some pics too. Then it was back to work and then home. Overall, something like normal day.

More Pics...

These pics were taken at the fountain at Changi Airport. ;)

Finally. Today. Went to play soccer in the morning from 9am till 2pm. It was real cool and fun. Then went to Gam's house to learn the bass guitar. It was real cool and fun. but hard. But learning a new instrument will nv be easy. And i'll try my best to master it. Me and Gam went off to Claire's house to help her cook something. We went there to peel prawns to make some salad or something. Aftertat, we chilled out for awhile, then went back home. Claire's mum sent us. Made a stop by Kai Ting's house first. Her house is lik so big and so grand la. Envy Envy Envy. haha. We got a tour of the house, then went back home lor. Conclusion, quite a fun day. haha. Especially hanging out wif my BFFs.

Yeah. So that's all for today. Haha. Gtg liao. Do other stuff online. Cya... ;)

P.S: And as for u hor gal, get well soon. And use the eyedrops and take your medicine. They won't kill la. To be healthy is definitely better than being sick. ;)

First Post Of 2009!!!

2009-01-01T08:58:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm. Back again. Finally after*...T...H...I...N...K...I...N...G* 8 days!!! I can finally find the time to update my blog again. I've been busy lately again. Managed to find another job at the Singapore Expo. Although its sales again, its much better than the one i had before. Now doing sales for bedsheets and pillows(whoop!!!) now at least i have Sebastian (bro) to accompany while i work. And m working colleagues are pretty funny and wild. Especially my supervisor. He may seem serious when working, but when after work, he starts up the most ridiculous stuff. Funny guy.

Anyway... New Year Stuff.

Firstly... Sorry To Crew FC....
Cause i wasn't able to join u guys for the final match of the year. (Working la)
Sooooooo... real sorry. (That's all i can say)

Secondly... Thank You To My Study Group Mates...

Without u guys, dunno how i would have been able to get past the 'O's. And u guys really taught me new stuff and were always there when i needed u guys. So thank you!!! Could nv have any better frens than u guys. BFFs\Study Mates: Gamaliel, Claire, Amanda, Rachel(Though i dun know u alot, but i still regard u as a best fren yeah? ;))

Thirdly... Sorry To Those I've Offended...
Gosh...i think i offended countless people this year. Kinda wacky. Haha. So, i'm really sorry if i offended. Its a new year. Frens again yeah? ;)

Fourthly... To The New Frens I Made This Year...Glad That I knew You...And To My Old Frens That I Lost Contact Before...Glad That I Found U!!!!!

Lastly.... A Very Happy New Year To All!!! 2009's a New Year, So Let's Make The Best Of It!!!!!

Christmas Shopping!!!

2008-12-23T08:06:00.000-08:00

Today was a change of my usual schedule. I woke up early today, thinking that i had work. I was halfway through my breakfast when i realised "Oh ya hor...I stop work liao. Haha." I ended up going for a haircut in the end. I look just horrible rite now. Haha. Went out wif Gam and Claire in the afternoon. We wanted to go to Orchard (AGAIN!!!)...anyway, we were going there to get Christmas gifts and to watch a movie.(Forgot the name again. Cause its kinda long) We went to Taka first to get my Christmas gifts which i bought yesterday but left at my workplace. Then over there, i went to buy more present. Spent quite some time there. Amanda also decided to join us for our movie due to some problems... But it was kinda fun. And kinda odd. Cause its lik been how long since i entered Taka in home clothes.

After that, we went to Cineleisure to catch the movie. We went to buy tickets first, then went to Pastamania for lunch. I had this Al Funghi dish. Its nice. and very creamy. Just to my liking. Haha. Gam almost couldn't finish his. Haha. Guess they give big portions at Pastamania too. After the movie, we shopped abit more at the Heeren, then back to Taka. Where my bffs and i separated. Claire had to meet up wif someone, I had to go meet someone too. Haha. Amanda and Gam decided to stay at Taka to shop for gifts. So we separated. I went down to Jurong Point next. I was so sleepy on the journey there la. Haha. But at the thought of meeting her, i suddenly become very energetic lor. Haha. Then i went to visit her at her workplace. Then i bought some gifts there too. Pity i couldn't send her home. Anyway, i spent abt an hour at Jurong Point, then headed home.

Its been a long day. But this post pretty much sums up wad i have to say. Lastly, i wanna thank her for brightening up my day yesterday. Her surprise visit really caught me by surprise. So thank you!!! Haha.....

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Ok. Now to the second part. Claire's confirmation. Due to Claire's insistence. I have decided to post abt Claire's confirmation day....

It was fun overall. Except for the fact that we came late. Haha. We ended up sitting at the back. (Oh, and i went wif Gam, Amanda, Kai ting, Ming Shuang, Sheryl, Jolene and Tessa) Kai Ting and Sheryl were like playing my PSP throughout the confirmation la. I couldn't hear much. And berfore i knew it, the ceremony was over. Later, it was down to the basement to meet Claire. We met, took lots of photos, and ate the jelly beans Gam bought for Claire. (Some tasted horrible...e.g: Liquorice) We had dinner there at the buffet. Then there was something lik clubbing next? Not sure. But all the songs played were oldies. We had tons of fun though. There was this guy who was super enthu too. Haha. Pulled all the gals wif us to dance except Sheryl. Haha. Funny. Then i went to toastbox to eat wif Gam and Amanda. I got emo somehow. Maybe cause i was tired from work. Then lik that lor. Keep quiet throughout. Haha. Then after Gam and Amanda finished their food, we left for home lor. That kinda sums up that day...

Ok then. I really gotta catch some shut eye. Its like 1am and i'm still awake. So yeah. Cya...until the next post. Chow!

My Life So Far... ;)

2008-12-21T08:19:00.000-08:00

Whew!!! Finally, i get to update my blog. Though i'm kinda lazy to update links. Have to relink everyone all over again la. Super lazy. Anyway, just got home from work. Sitting in front of the comp wif a bowl of cereal in front of me. Feels blissful. Haha. I have to say, working really taught me the true side of the world. That it can be fun...but it can also be bad. There would always be a bad person in where u work. Hmmmm. I seem to have met my bad person too. Nevermind, i'm stopping work after tomorrow anyway, so i won't have to go back taka for quite sometime again!!! Wheee!!! Taka is lik a very very strict school la. Wif plenty of rules and plenty of managers waiting to pounce on watever mistake u make. Dangerous place. So far, i've only had one major accident. And it was when the taka anthem was playin in the morning. Then i was like walking around taka lik nobody's business. But in fact, you're suppose to stand at your respective stations until the song ends. Got a scolding by the manager and supervisor. Haha. But it was my first time, how was i to know?! ;)

Now...on to today's events. (This post will be kinda long. So bear wif me yeah?) I went jogging wif Jia le today morning. Supposed to meet up at 8am, but then my hp drop, the buttons dropped out too. So i spent lik an hour and a half trying to fing the buttons and placing them back together. After the jogging, me and Jia le chatted for awhile lor, and then we tried to call people to this coming tuesday's Pri School Outing, but then lik everyone's working or busy. Bugger. Anyway, i had to go to my grandmother's house after tat, then after the visit, i went to work. Hmmm. Work was fun/no fun as usual. Except for the fact that i FINALLY GOT TO MEET MY NP PALS AGAIN!!!! Super happy la. They were lik mass dancing in front of Ngee Ann City. And i joined them in my work clothes. Got high. Pictures must see if i can find first. Haha. Then after that, went home lor. Nothing excitin really happened. And i got to go home earlier today cuase i didn't have to wait for myrna lam after her work to go home together. Haha. Think i'll have to wait tomorrow though. Haha. Anyway, that's all lor....AND I HAVEN"T DONE MY CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!!! OMG LA!!! Its like so late liao. Must faster rush if i wanna make it in time i think. Haha. Ok then...Signing off and till next time then!!! ;)

Sorry...renovating Blog

2008-12-10T08:07:00.000-08:00

Sorry. I'm curently changin my blog skin. So u might find tat its not finished. But i can't help it cause i have NO TIME!!!! LOL!!! *random*

Job...Good!!!!....and Bad!!! ;)

2008-12-07T07:21:00.000-08:00

Hmmm. Super exhausted. before i found a job,i was like " ooohhhhh!!! A job? Really? i also wan leh!!!" but after i got the job, i'm like thinking now "WAAA SEEEHHH!!! Not yet knock off? Faster leh!!!" There's a very big diff. Especially if you're working sales. You have to stand for lik 8-9 hrs. Can die. haha. Lucky got collegues to make my life easier. You also won't feel really tired when you're serving customers. Its such a joy la. Christmas is HERE!!!! Lalalala. Haha. I'm selling candles at Taka right now. So if you're looking for a gift for Christmas with a budget of 20 bucks, come to Taka, i can show u some good buys. Haha. Yeah. So i'm lik super tired right now. Saw Claire yesterday. She bluff me la. I told her where i work, then ask her where she was. She told me she was at home when she was outside. Evil. In the end, She, Kai ting and Tessa came to visit. Totally stunned and totally shocked...

Hmmm. Did no sales yesterday. So damn sad. Then boss say must do lik 100 bucks in 3 days. I stress. but today better la. Think i did over 100 bucks. Haha. The total sale was lik 400 plus. So happy. Better than yesterday. Hope things would be better wof the PH tmr. Ok then. Think i'm gonna go hit the sack. Haha. K then. Till next time. Goodnite!!! And MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Outing with Gam and Claire...

2008-12-03T22:30:00.000-08:00

Hmmm. I'll be posting up yesterday's events today. Cause yesterday i reached home so late and so tired, i just went straight to sleep. I even woke up at 12pm today la. Never woke up so late before. Hmmmms.

Anyway, went out with Claire and Gamaliel yesterday. (My best buddies!!!!) Met up with gam in the morning at first. But he was late (as usual)...why am i always the earliest? :p haha. We then took the train down to Causeway to meet up with Claire and Amanda for lunch. But the both of them also late. Haha. We then went to Yoshinoya for lunch. Over there, we talked about each others stuff lor. Although they seemed more interested in mine. Haha. After lunch, Amanda had to go off to work lor. (So envious la. Can get to work... I ALSO WANNA WORK!!!!!!) Me, Claire and Gam then went to shop shop in Causeway. We went to this shop which sold men's wear. Cause Gam wnated to buy some stuff. He is crazy la. He brought out 200 bucks with him. Richh guy. We went to try out the different shirts to decide which one suited Gam better. I have to say, Gam was a totally different person!! Haha. Looked super cool la. Pity there wasn't a prom, or else all the girls see him surely stun one. Haha. I also went to try on some shirts la. (Though i thought i looked super gay) Special thanks to Claire too. She helped us carry our bags, choose or clothes, decided which one suited us more, gave us advice on how to look nice. Thanks to her. Haha. Gam bought a shirt and a tie in the end. (pictures later below). I didn't buy anything cause no money. Haha. But i'll be goin back to Causeway again to buy the shirts next time ba. And maybe a tie. The shopkeeper was also super funny la. He thought that Claire and Gam were BGR. So funny. Seeing Claire's "what the hell look" haha.

We went off to Metro next. Gam bought another shirt there. Ok...maybe not say a shirt la. I dunno how to explain also. Look and pics later to see. We then went off to watch City Of Ember. It was a blast. Scorching good. The plot was good. It was exciting, thrilling, and something like National Treasure. Very smart. Haha. I'll give it lik 4.5 stars out of 5? Cause i thought the end could have been better. And the starting could have been nicer. Cause the starting was abit confusing. But overall, i'd say its a MUST watch.

After the show, we went to Claire's house to get some stuff. Then went to NUS Cultural Centre for a musical. "Its My Life" It was really good. I really can't beleive it. The entire cast were all teens and they sang as well or even better than some pop star singers outside? I'd give two thumbs up for this musical. It really depicted about our teenage life. It really shows the stresses and problems we face. It was quite hilarious as well. I was laughing so hard. Haha. I also met Yu Han, in which i got a real shock cause i didn't really expected to see her there. Anyway, after the musical, we waited for the bus to Clementi. Claire suddenly got all emo. Tried to cheer her up but then lik to no avail. Realised that leaving her on her own to chat with someone else was even more effective la. On the train i chatted with her. Think she finally forgave me. So so so so happy. Never going to let her down again. And i hope she gets well soon. Hmmmms. Haha. Yeah. So that was how i ended my day lor. Go back home. Showered, read abit, then it was lights off.

Anyway, yeah. i gtg. Have to cook lunch already. So till next time then. Cya...

Here are the pics from yesterday. I took it from Claire's blog (with her permission)...

Think i look super gay la. Damn Weird.....

To Claire and Gamaliel: U two are the best frens that i could ever have. You guys have always been there for me to support me when i fall. Let's hope we keep this freship up foreva yeah? U two ROCK!!!

Gloomy Day...Gloomy Life...

2008-12-02T01:51:00.000-08:00

Today...was all round gloomy. No mood to do anything, and i didn't sleep at all for the whole entire night. Worst thing was, my dad found tat i wasn't asleep then he thought i was using my phone. So he took it away. Resulted in me being unable to message. Sucks. Head's been feeling dizzy and giddy for the whole entire day. And my motor functions can't seem to work properly. Funny how not having one night of sleep can do so much damage to u. I even fell sick. Down with a flu and cough currently. But its better than fever ba. But the duo is still unbearable. I can only imagine hell to be 10 times more worse. Dunno how i'm goin to go out wif claire and gam tomorrow for a movie and musical. Think we would be shoppin at Causeway then move off to Jurong East and West Mall later on. (Dunno why have to go so far)

Had to do the housework today too. Housework seemed harder than usual too. Must because i'm sick. Right now, even though my body feels tired. I just can't seem to sleep. Too many things on my mind. Or should i just say one thing's making me unable to sleep and everything. Haiz...hope i'll be able to sleep and recover by tonight. But illness seems to be getting worse. Panadol doesn't seem to work. Hmmmm. But all in all, its been quite a boring and a very taxing day for me. Think i'll skip dinner and go straight to bed. Just dun have the appetite to eat anymore. Really hope i can recover.

Went to the stadium today too. Wanted to check out their gym. Its 2.50 per entry for none members and 50 bucks for off-peak members. (which means i can go frm monday to friday, frm the opening hrs to 4pm) Which one's more worth it? Any opinions? Tag me yr opinions ba. Ok. I think its time to end off. Head's spinning real bad. And its time for medicine again. Till next time then...cya....

Oh. And i saw this really cool poem on blogskins.com. But since the image is gone. I can only type it out. For her...

I'm not supposed to love you
I'm not supposed to care
I'm not supposed to love my life,
wishing you were there
I'm not supposed to wonder
where you are and what you did
I'm sorry, I can't help myself
cause i'm in love with you...

It describes how i feel. But not fully. How i feel can never be explained by words alone...

Its been 2 days. Are u still mad? I'm suffering.......... Forgive me?......

Smile i will no longer...until u do

2008-12-01T06:34:00.000-08:00

Ok. I know i was wrong. I said something and meant something else. That was my ffault. So i'm writing this apology. And sorry if there are typos in this one. But i can't think or type straight now. I'm just sincrely sorry. I really dunno wad else to say. I wasn't there when u needed me. I wasn't around when u called. And i could actually sleep even after knowin such a serious thing haad occured. For that i have no right for your trust anymore. But i'm still human. U know how deep u cut me when u made those remarks? Though i know i was at fault. I was still hurt. U actually made me cry. But thx for being so honest. Or i would have nv known the jerk i really was. And i'm sorry i shouted at u. I shouldn't have. And i made a new mistake. I really dunno wad else to say but sorry. I really dun. So tat's all i can say... ...sorry... ...i really am...

I never meant to do this all to u....i really didn't...

Sunday blues?!!!

2008-11-30T03:00:00.001-08:00

Sunday.... Woke up with beautifully red sunburns. Haha. But i had to pack my room today though. Super tired. But that's not the point. I was like goin through all my stuff today while packing my room when i thought "Wow! 4 years really flew by!" I can still vividly remember how excited i was to wear my new white school uniform and to enter my new school. To meet new frens, to start off afresh, and to open up a new chapter to my life. But now as i'm typin this post, that chapter has almost come to an end. I will never be able to walk down that path again. And as i see the finishing line for that chapter. I'm thinking "Did i make the right choices? Did i really make this 4 years worth remembering?" Till now, i honestly still have no answer to that question...

Throughout my 4 years, i have made new friends and lost old ones. Old ones like Vivian, Mei Ling. These friends accompanied me from primary school. But now when we see each other, we hardly acknowledge each other. Guess we have all moved on. I really regret not being able to hold on to those frenships. Somehow, i feel as if i have failed them. Man, i feel lik tearing... I have also made new frens though. Frens which i wish i would never lose. Frens lik Claire, Amanda, Gamaliel, Nick Lim, Next Team Crew, and many others. The list goes on and i can never finish mentioning everyone of them. Thx for all their support and contributions. No matter how small. Like playing soccer together, hanging out together. Or even just studying together. So thank u.

I would summarise my 4 years this way: my sec 1 and sec 2 years were BORING!!! No offence, but my class just wasn't united in many ways. Maybe i just couldn't fit in a class filled with hardworking people, or maybe our class was too busy studying that we hardly had time to bond. I dunno. (But i think it was the latter :P) But my sec 3 and sec 4 years were more eventful. Though it wasn't that bonded too, at least it was more noisy and was always bounded the not wanting to break rules. It was more fun. And i met two amazing people whom i can say made my school life more worth it. Gamaliel and Claire!!! (Trumpets blaring) Haha. I would say that those two really changed my life to an extent.

I also realised one thing. U might think that u had alot of frens in school. But the test really comes is when its the holidays. If u guys are still in contact that is. I have lost contact with many frens now. Haha. But also got to know new frens too. (Guess its always like this, u win some, u lose some) Here's a list of frens that i feel have made my holiday the best so far: Claire, Gamaliel, Amanda, Rachel, Chu Ling, Amirah, Shi Yin :p , Sebastian, Ee Ting. U guys really rock. You've made my holiday a blast so far!!! I'd really hate to lose contact with u guys.

I'll be ending off here i guess. I have to go eat dinner already. Haha. ok then. Till the next time. Cya...

Unofficial Red Camp 5 Meeting @ Sentosa

2008-11-30T01:21:00.000-08:00

Today, i will be posting up 2 posts. One about yesterday and one about today. I'll start about yesterday then. Yesterday was the unofficial Red Camp 5 Meeting @ Sentosa . Firstly, i have to say that i was soooooooo disappointed with the Chung Cheng people who went with me to the Red Camp @ Ngee Ann Polytechnic. None of them turned up. Except for Sebastian. But at least some were kind enough to tell me that they could not go. People like Ee Ting and Sin Ren. But the others. Couldn't u have at least told us? But nevermind about that. What's past is past. The meeting was still fun though.

Started the morning late. I was supposed meet up with Chu Ling and Amirah at Jurong East at 8.30. But i woke up super late at 8am. Haha. I got a shock. I quickly rushed out la. (Forgot to take my breakfast too) ended up going alone and then meeting them at Harbourfront MRT. When i got there, there was also quite little people la. Compared to the numbers that originally went to the Red Camp. But it was still alot of fun. Haha. We met up at Vivo's rooftop. We were split up from the 5 tribes to 7 tribes. Mine was the Cenninchevitans. (Made up by all 5 tribes) Its a long name. But it was still cool. And many SLs got tongue-tied trying to pronounce it. Haha. Some ice-breaker games were played and we went off to get lunch before heading off to Siloso Beach. There, we played many different games. We had to fill up a bottle with ea water. I practically went to hold sea water in my mouth la. Almost choked. We lost that game. But we won at Captain's ball. We totally trashed the other team at cheering too (maybe caused our tribe outnumbered theirs by alot, but it can't be helped i suppose, cause our tribe just rocked!!) We also a freeze mob at Sentosa, though it wasn't as successful as i thought ba. the mass dance was a success though. It was so funny to see the public's face. Haha. Somewhere confused being shocked and amused i think.

I got super sunburnt. I have never got so sunburnt in my life too. Haha. I woke up tomorrow shocked thinking "Why am i so red?!" After Red Camp ended, it was still early. So i hung out with Sebastian and some of my newly made frens from the Cenninchevitans. Worse thing was, i was like carried from inland to the sea and thrown inside. Haha. They caught me off guard and the next thing i new, i was in the water. got all wet again though i thought my class had dried already. Played some beach soccer with my pals later on and went off to Vivo to meet Chu Ling and Amirah again. We chatted for awhile and then went to the rooftop again to see the fireworks at Vivo. It was Vivo's second anniversary that day. (It was super coincidental la...and i hoped that i could have watched with u) we then walked around cause we didn't want to get caught up in the jam of people. And then took the train home. All in all, it was a super long day, and also a very tirin day. But it was just simply awesome. Hope to be able to go out on an outing with so much fun again!!!!!

One more thing, have to say sorry to someone. Chu ling, sorry hor. Didn't know u were allergic to sea water. Then i caused those rashes when i hugged u. So very sorry. And sorry for being mean everytime. Haha. Rock on.

Emo.......dunno why...

2008-11-28T07:01:00.000-08:00

Hmmmmmms. I know i already made a post today. But seem to be feeling kinda of down now. So i decided to post another one abt my real feelings ba. But it'll be kinda random.

Throughout my 16 years of life, i guess i nv really lived up to myself. I was always living in a shell that just wasn't me. Living in a shell that i created and enforced as my retreat for so long that it has become like a habit for me to show others what wasn't me. And now when i want to try to show others the real me, they look at me with strange eyes which seem to question "why're are u trying to be something that u aren't? Just be yourself will you?"

Oh and, sometimes it gets worse. There is nothing i hate more than people who always act like they understand me. Only a few do. Dun judge a book by its cover k? I'm no angel. I ain't no good guy. What u have seen of me is just the tip of the iceberg. I've had a darker past than you've ever expected. So i'm tryin to do a few good deeds now to pay it back. I think it won't help anyway. I'm a living damned. I'm tired physically, i'm tired emotionally. So give me some space some time. I'm no perfect man. I'm no perfect being. Stop treating me like some super being. Super depressed now.

Any of u guys ever wondered if God even existed. I do. Sometimes i wonder why he chose path for me. Why he made me this way. Why i had to be this character. Why couldn't i be someone else. Why can't others finally see me for what i really really am? I guess its cause i made too much mistakes that the me in others eyes have changed...changed throughly...but giv me a chance to prove. And i won't let u down. But why doesn't anyone give me that chance.

Christ...sometimes i dun even know why i turn out this way. Because of family? Because of frens? Or because of myself. I dunno. Won't someone giv me a sign? Hate this life. Feel li ending it rite now. So conclusion:

1. Dun try to act like understand me if u actually dun. Cause you'll only get me mad

2. Dun always assume that i'm pure evil and nothing else. I'm still a living being like u and me after all. I also have another side to me

3. Forgive me if ever hurt u in some way or ever caused u trouble

4. Try to see my real intentions before u come to comclusions..............

Sorry for this sudden post. I'm guessing it'll appear several times a month. Sorry. Its just one of my many swings. So be patient with me. Sorry... ... ... ... ...

I'm still tryin to break feel from the bonds holding me in...

Job Hunting...and playtime ;)

2008-11-28T04:15:00.000-08:00

Today...super tiring. But still fun la. Met up with Sebastian and Ee Ting again. But with a new person joinin us. Hannah!!! (Dunno if i got the name rite?) Haha.Started the day with Sebas late (as usual) then went off to TPY HDB Hub to look. We went to Breadtalk first. Thhe manager there was super fierce la. Strict guy. Kinda of rude too. But i guess it was neccessary. He really wanted us to think abt our choices carefully before we choose. We left in the end. But that was option number one.

Next, we went on to Orchard.(Since there were more shops there)Went off to Wisma first. Then got lost there. Haha. But we finally found our way to Taka after wandering around lor. When we went there, we saw this "fair" stuff wif Winnie the Pooh and all. We got like super excited la. Me and Sebas rushed down there. Wanted to get a pic wif the Pooh characters at first. But ended up playin. We still got some pictures in the end though.

The pics...enjoy!!! (very little only)

Afterwards then we finally got down to the nitty gritty lor. Started asking around for jobs. I can only remember a few places though. Went to Stabucks, Auntie Anne, some ice-cream shop, etc (forgot liao). But 1 warning hor. NEVER GO TO CRYSTAL JADE!!!! Their application form is like super long. Super crappy. I do halfway then dun wan do liao. Super horrible. Think i'd have to find one day to type out my own resume... ;)

We met Amanda at her work place too. She looked flustered. I can only imagine that will happen to me if i work there too. I was told by her that the guy promoters working at Taka had to wear formal attire too!!!! Nightmare. Can't imagine myself in a collared shirt wif a tie and long black pants *shudder* worst than any horror movie.

Went to borders later on to ask for work. Ended up looking at the Guiness World Records stuff for dunno how long. But it was fun la. Then met up with Samuel Aw to buy his stuff. Dun think he found it though. Then we went on to Starbucks Cafe. Asked there for job vacancy. But they also wanted full time workers. (Why so many people want full time people?) Ended up leaving there with a Iced Vanilla Latte. Not a bad drink. Think the green tea stuff that Hannah bought won't be suited to my liking. Haha. Then we met Amanda. And i lost count of how many times she hit me in one conversation. In the end, Sebas, Ee ting, Hannah and Samuel went off to watch quarantine. I couldn't cause i had to go home for piano. Accompanied Amanda to walk around Taka for a while and treated her to some yogurt stuff. Then she went to buy pineapples, and then went on to finish them all. The she said she was full la. Haha. So little only. Haha. But it was kind of her to guide me back to the MRT station in the end. So i have to thank her. Then i got on the train lor.

Hmmmmms. So that was how my day turned out lor. Another job hunting day which ended up in having fun. Haha. This is becoming a habit. Haha. But no regrets her. Looking forward to go out with u guys again!! Its been fun.

From job interview to movie?!

2008-11-27T06:18:00.000-08:00

Today was kinda lik a wierd day for me la. haha. i started my day with a trip to the dentist. Its been such a long time since i went there la. Terrible....the sound, the tools. I'll be lucky if i dun get nightmares tonight. And it costs 42 bucks just to clean up my teeth. I might as well go home clean myself better lor.

Then after that i went off to causeway for my interview. Met up with Amanda for lunch. And also made her late for work. So sorry lor. And she was also the one that intro me for the interview. So thx to her too. (though i still owe her a apple crumble). Anyway, i thought the interview was a success ba. haha. Thought not confirm yet.

Then later, i WAS supposed to go to Gam's house. haha. but then i met Ee Ting, Sebastian and Yun Qi. Then i totally forgot. SORRY GAM. haha. We walked around the new building at Northpoint then asked around for jobs lor. Though we found none. We ended up watchin a movie instead. Four Christmases. I didn't think it was really nice. Stupid Sebas. He chose such a lousy movie. Haha. But i wouldn't say it was bad, maybe 3.5 stars out of 5? But it was meant to be comedy, so why did i end up feeling sad for the main characters leh? Well, at least they had a happy ending.

After that, we spent the rest of the time playin arcade lor. Although Yun Qi had to leave earlier. And i also made one discovery. Ee Ting was bad at the stacking game machine. haha. She never got to the last one. haha. But i suppose that's good enough. Sebas the worst. At his last game, he totally messed up. Yeah. So that was how my day turned out. I went back home for dinner and now here i am typin this message.

So till next time then. Cya. ;)

Welcome!!! + Phuket Cruise + Red Camp 5

2008-11-25T21:35:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time since i started blogging, and since its the start of the holidays, i might as well get started. Anyway, this would be my new blog. So please tag me and give me your links so i can link u up yeah?

Besides, that's not the reason for this post ba. Recently been to Patong Beach @ Phuket. Went on a cruise. Super super boring. I spent most of my time in the cabin or taking photos on board, and the boat was super rocky. So for 5 days i spent my time exploring the ship. Nothing much really. I never missed Singapore more. haiz...suppose u nv know what u really miss till you're apart from it.

Anyway, here are some pics of my trip. Enjoy!!!!

Anyway, the next chapter...RED CAMP 5. It really rocked. maybe except for the first day la. I found it quite boring. But day 2 and day 3 were better. haha. Met quite alot of frens. From different schools too. And got 2 free movie passes. Have to thank Sam, De yi, Sebastian and Amirah (other school) for their hardwork then. We got first. Whoop! But i think the last day was the best la. We had hop nite. Way too cool. Got to know Amirah's group too. Though onli remember a gal's name. Shi Yin! Hmmm. Yeah. So tat's about it. It was fun. Got to know new frens, got to know the courses better etc...all in all, i gained alot of good stuff ba.

ok...gtg...till nxt time... ;)