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Sunday blues?!!!

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Sunday.... Woke up with beautifully red sunburns. Haha. But i had to pack my room today though. Super tired. But that's not the point. I was like goin through all my stuff today while packing my room when i thought "Wow! 4 years really flew by!" I can still vividly remember how excited i was to wear my new white school uniform and to enter my new school. To meet new frens, to start off afresh, and to open up a new chapter to my life. But now as i'm typin this post, that chapter has almost come to an end. I will never be able to walk down that path again. And as i see the finishing line for that chapter. I'm thinking "Did i make the right choices? Did i really make this 4 years worth remembering?" Till now, i honestly still have no answer to that question...

Throughout my 4 years, i have made new friends and lost old ones. Old ones like Vivian, Mei Ling. These friends accompanied me from primary school. But now when we see each other, we hardly acknowledge each other. Guess we have all moved on. I really regret not being able to hold on to those frenships. Somehow, i feel as if i have failed them. Man, i feel lik tearing... I have also made new frens though. Frens which i wish i would never lose. Frens lik Claire, Amanda, Gamaliel, Nick Lim, Next Team Crew, and many others. The list goes on and i can never finish mentioning everyone of them. Thx for all their support and contributions. No matter how small. Like playing soccer together, hanging out together. Or even just studying together. So thank u.

I would summarise my 4 years this way: my sec 1 and sec 2 years were BORING!!! No offence, but my class just wasn't united in many ways. Maybe i just couldn't fit in a class filled with hardworking people, or maybe our class was too busy studying that we hardly had time to bond. I dunno. (But i think it was the latter :P) But my sec 3 and sec 4 years were more eventful. Though it wasn't that bonded too, at least it was more noisy and was always bounded the not wanting to break rules. It was more fun. And i met two amazing people whom i can say made my school life more worth it. Gamaliel and Claire!!! (Trumpets blaring) Haha. I would say that those two really changed my life to an extent.

I also realised one thing. U might think that u had alot of frens in school. But the test really comes is when its the holidays. If u guys are still in contact that is. I have lost contact with many frens now. Haha. But also got to know new frens too. (Guess its always like this, u win some, u lose some) Here's a list of frens that i feel have made my holiday the best so far: Claire, Gamaliel, Amanda, Rachel, Chu Ling, Amirah, Shi Yin :p , Sebastian, Ee Ting. U guys really rock. You've made my holiday a blast so far!!! I'd really hate to lose contact with u guys.

I'll be ending off here i guess. I have to go eat dinner already. Haha. ok then. Till the next time. Cya...

The Beat Comes On At 3:00 AM :)

Unofficial Red Camp 5 Meeting @ Sentosa

Today, i will be posting up 2 posts. One about yesterday and one about today. I'll start about yesterday then. Yesterday was the unofficial Red Camp 5 Meeting @ Sentosa . Firstly, i have to say that i was soooooooo disappointed with the Chung Cheng people who went with me to the Red Camp @ Ngee Ann Polytechnic. None of them turned up. Except for Sebastian. But at least some were kind enough to tell me that they could not go. People like Ee Ting and Sin Ren. But the others. Couldn't u have at least told us? But nevermind about that. What's past is past. The meeting was still fun though.

Started the morning late. I was supposed meet up with Chu Ling and Amirah at Jurong East at 8.30. But i woke up super late at 8am. Haha. I got a shock. I quickly rushed out la. (Forgot to take my breakfast too) ended up going alone and then meeting them at Harbourfront MRT. When i got there, there was also quite little people la. Compared to the numbers that originally went to the Red Camp. But it was still alot of fun. Haha. We met up at Vivo's rooftop. We were split up from the 5 tribes to 7 tribes. Mine was the Cenninchevitans. (Made up by all 5 tribes) Its a long name. But it was still cool. And many SLs got tongue-tied trying to pronounce it. Haha. Some ice-breaker games were played and we went off to get lunch before heading off to Siloso Beach. There, we played many different games. We had to fill up a bottle with ea water. I practically went to hold sea water in my mouth la. Almost choked. We lost that game. But we won at Captain's ball. We totally trashed the other team at cheering too (maybe caused our tribe outnumbered theirs by alot, but it can't be helped i suppose, cause our tribe just rocked!!) We also a freeze mob at Sentosa, though it wasn't as successful as i thought ba. the mass dance was a success though. It was so funny to see the public's face. Haha. Somewhere confused being shocked and amused i think.

I got super sunburnt. I have never got so sunburnt in my life too. Haha. I woke up tomorrow shocked thinking "Why am i so red?!" After Red Camp ended, it was still early. So i hung out with Sebastian and some of my newly made frens from the Cenninchevitans. Worse thing was, i was like carried from inland to the sea and thrown inside. Haha. They caught me off guard and the next thing i new, i was in the water. got all wet again though i thought my class had dried already. Played some beach soccer with my pals later on and went off to Vivo to meet Chu Ling and Amirah again. We chatted for awhile and then went to the rooftop again to see the fireworks at Vivo. It was Vivo's second anniversary that day. (It was super coincidental la...and i hoped that i could have watched with u) we then walked around cause we didn't want to get caught up in the jam of people. And then took the train home. All in all, it was a super long day, and also a very tirin day. But it was just simply awesome. Hope to be able to go out on an outing with so much fun again!!!!!

One more thing, have to say sorry to someone. Chu ling, sorry hor. Didn't know u were allergic to sea water. Then i caused those rashes when i hugged u. So very sorry. And sorry for being mean everytime. Haha. Rock on.

The Beat Comes On At 1:21 AM :)

Emo.......dunno why...

Friday, November 28, 2008

Hmmmmmms. I know i already made a post today. But seem to be feeling kinda of down now. So i decided to post another one abt my real feelings ba. But it'll be kinda random.

Throughout my 16 years of life, i guess i nv really lived up to myself. I was always living in a shell that just wasn't me. Living in a shell that i created and enforced as my retreat for so long that it has become like a habit for me to show others what wasn't me. And now when i want to try to show others the real me, they look at me with strange eyes which seem to question "why're are u trying to be something that u aren't? Just be yourself will you?"

Oh and, sometimes it gets worse. There is nothing i hate more than people who always act like they understand me. Only a few do. Dun judge a book by its cover k? I'm no angel. I ain't no good guy. What u have seen of me is just the tip of the iceberg. I've had a darker past than you've ever expected. So i'm tryin to do a few good deeds now to pay it back. I think it won't help anyway. I'm a living damned. I'm tired physically, i'm tired emotionally. So give me some space some time. I'm no perfect man. I'm no perfect being. Stop treating me like some super being. Super depressed now.

Any of u guys ever wondered if God even existed. I do. Sometimes i wonder why he chose path for me. Why he made me this way. Why i had to be this character. Why couldn't i be someone else. Why can't others finally see me for what i really really am? I guess its cause i made too much mistakes that the me in others eyes have changed...changed throughly...but giv me a chance to prove. And i won't let u down. But why doesn't anyone give me that chance.

Christ...sometimes i dun even know why i turn out this way. Because of family? Because of frens? Or because of myself. I dunno. Won't someone giv me a sign? Hate this life. Feel li ending it rite now. So conclusion:

1. Dun try to act like understand me if u actually dun. Cause you'll only get me mad

2. Dun always assume that i'm pure evil and nothing else. I'm still a living being like u and me after all. I also have another side to me

3. Forgive me if ever hurt u in some way or ever caused u trouble

4. Try to see my real intentions before u come to comclusions..............

Sorry for this sudden post. I'm guessing it'll appear several times a month. Sorry. Its just one of my many swings. So be patient with me. Sorry... ... ... ... ...

I'm still tryin to break feel from the bonds holding me in...

The Beat Comes On At 7:01 AM :)

Job Hunting...and playtime ;)

Today...super tiring. But still fun la. Met up with Sebastian and Ee Ting again. But with a new person joinin us. Hannah!!! (Dunno if i got the name rite?) Haha.Started the day with Sebas late (as usual) then went off to TPY HDB Hub to look. We went to Breadtalk first. Thhe manager there was super fierce la. Strict guy. Kinda of rude too. But i guess it was neccessary. He really wanted us to think abt our choices carefully before we choose. We left in the end. But that was option number one.

Next, we went on to Orchard.(Since there were more shops there)Went off to Wisma first. Then got lost there. Haha. But we finally found our way to Taka after wandering around lor. When we went there, we saw this "fair" stuff wif Winnie the Pooh and all. We got like super excited la. Me and Sebas rushed down there. Wanted to get a pic wif the Pooh characters at first. But ended up playin. We still got some pictures in the end though.

The pics...enjoy!!! (very little only)

Afterwards then we finally got down to the nitty gritty lor. Started asking around for jobs. I can only remember a few places though. Went to Stabucks, Auntie Anne, some ice-cream shop, etc (forgot liao). But 1 warning hor. NEVER GO TO CRYSTAL JADE!!!! Their application form is like super long. Super crappy. I do halfway then dun wan do liao. Super horrible. Think i'd have to find one day to type out my own resume... ;)

We met Amanda at her work place too. She looked flustered. I can only imagine that will happen to me if i work there too. I was told by her that the guy promoters working at Taka had to wear formal attire too!!!! Nightmare. Can't imagine myself in a collared shirt wif a tie and long black pants *shudder* worst than any horror movie.

Went to borders later on to ask for work. Ended up looking at the Guiness World Records stuff for dunno how long. But it was fun la. Then met up with Samuel Aw to buy his stuff. Dun think he found it though. Then we went on to Starbucks Cafe. Asked there for job vacancy. But they also wanted full time workers. (Why so many people want full time people?) Ended up leaving there with a Iced Vanilla Latte. Not a bad drink. Think the green tea stuff that Hannah bought won't be suited to my liking. Haha. Then we met Amanda. And i lost count of how many times she hit me in one conversation. In the end, Sebas, Ee ting, Hannah and Samuel went off to watch quarantine. I couldn't cause i had to go home for piano. Accompanied Amanda to walk around Taka for a while and treated her to some yogurt stuff. Then she went to buy pineapples, and then went on to finish them all. The she said she was full la. Haha. So little only. Haha. But it was kind of her to guide me back to the MRT station in the end. So i have to thank her. Then i got on the train lor.

Hmmmmms. So that was how my day turned out lor. Another job hunting day which ended up in having fun. Haha. This is becoming a habit. Haha. But no regrets her. Looking forward to go out with u guys again!! Its been fun.

The Beat Comes On At 4:15 AM :)

From job interview to movie?!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Today was kinda lik a wierd day for me la. haha. i started my day with a trip to the dentist. Its been such a long time since i went there la. Terrible....the sound, the tools. I'll be lucky if i dun get nightmares tonight. And it costs 42 bucks just to clean up my teeth. I might as well go home clean myself better lor.

Then after that i went off to causeway for my interview. Met up with Amanda for lunch. And also made her late for work. So sorry lor. And she was also the one that intro me for the interview. So thx to her too. (though i still owe her a apple crumble). Anyway, i thought the interview was a success ba. haha. Thought not confirm yet.

Then later, i WAS supposed to go to Gam's house. haha. but then i met Ee Ting, Sebastian and Yun Qi. Then i totally forgot. SORRY GAM. haha. We walked around the new building at Northpoint then asked around for jobs lor. Though we found none. We ended up watchin a movie instead. Four Christmases. I didn't think it was really nice. Stupid Sebas. He chose such a lousy movie. Haha. But i wouldn't say it was bad, maybe 3.5 stars out of 5? But it was meant to be comedy, so why did i end up feeling sad for the main characters leh? Well, at least they had a happy ending.

After that, we spent the rest of the time playin arcade lor. Although Yun Qi had to leave earlier. And i also made one discovery. Ee Ting was bad at the stacking game machine. haha. She never got to the last one. haha. But i suppose that's good enough. Sebas the worst. At his last game, he totally messed up. Yeah. So that was how my day turned out. I went back home for dinner and now here i am typin this message.

So till next time then. Cya. ;)

The Beat Comes On At 6:18 AM :)

Welcome!!! + Phuket Cruise + Red Camp 5

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Its been a long time since i started blogging, and since its the start of the holidays, i might as well get started. Anyway, this would be my new blog. So please tag me and give me your links so i can link u up yeah?

Besides, that's not the reason for this post ba. Recently been to Patong Beach @ Phuket. Went on a cruise. Super super boring. I spent most of my time in the cabin or taking photos on board, and the boat was super rocky. So for 5 days i spent my time exploring the ship. Nothing much really. I never missed Singapore more. haiz...suppose u nv know what u really miss till you're apart from it.

Anyway, here are some pics of my trip. Enjoy!!!!

Anyway, the next chapter...RED CAMP 5. It really rocked. maybe except for the first day la. I found it quite boring. But day 2 and day 3 were better. haha. Met quite alot of frens. From different schools too. And got 2 free movie passes. Have to thank Sam, De yi, Sebastian and Amirah (other school) for their hardwork then. We got first. Whoop! But i think the last day was the best la. We had hop nite. Way too cool. Got to know Amirah's group too. Though onli remember a gal's name. Shi Yin! Hmmm. Yeah. So tat's about it. It was fun. Got to know new frens, got to know the courses better etc...all in all, i gained alot of good stuff ba.

ok...gtg...till nxt time... ;)

The Beat Comes On At 9:35 PM :)